reverie

2010-04-20T00:20:00.003+08:00

floral design

tribal design

NUU SHOES FOR YOU?
shoes are drawn by my very talented friend liye
she's getting the shoes from newlook/cotton on so good quality is assured
selling at S$33!
for more details please head to oaknbindi.tublr.com!
THANKS for the support

I can say that i`m pretty much contented for having spent my entire week with clarence last week. Freedom was something I lost ever since I started working at dp.Life seriously cant get better than this. But as you all know, happiness is always temporary; it doesnt stay for too long a time, and before you know it, it is taken away from you, just like a breeze that carresses your face ever so gently for that very split second. As much as I want for time to come to a standstill, life still has to go on. Poly kids have to report back to school after their holiday, jc kids are compelled to study as the A levels get nearer and nearer , army guys have to report back to camp/new camps. And where do I go?

I report to work at a childcare centre in tampines. UH HUH, I found a new job which requires me to babysit 3-4 year old kids who are incredibly adorable yet annoying at times. I know right, claudia in a child care? it's like a kid looking after More kids. But what can I say, after interacting with those small little buggers today I really feel like i`m aging really quickly. Very soon those kids will grow up to be like us and they`ll forget how it used to be like when they were little toddlers who couldnt sit still. Honestly, when I think back about my kindergarten days, the only thing I remembered was this guy who was quite CUTE? hahaha my partner I think. Oh oh i also remembered doing some indian dance performance for my k2 graduation. It was extremely hilarious, not to mention embarrassing. I think I still have the video stashed somewhere. I really hope those kids will remember me when they grow up..

OH WELL GOTTA GO NOW, work at 9.30 tmr!
GOODNIGHT!

2010-03-29T15:40:00.004+08:00

because i`m annoyed like that almost everyday

Yes yes, I have issues with practically everything because I`m just angsty like that.
But I cant help it since I have such ill luck albeit not everyday. Yesterday I was scheduled to do fullshift at work and I got 50 bucks deducted for being 15 minutes late. WHY? because the bus took a whole 20 mins to come and decided to move like a freaking snail. Oh did I mention that I only earn 6.50 per hour on weekends and since it was a sunday I could have earned up to 65 but noooo because I GOT 50 BUCKS DEDUCTED. So I ended up earning 15 bucks for standing in the shop for goddamn 10 hours. It wasnt even my fault to begin with because I went down an hour before work started to catch the stupid bus. That's NOT ALL,I had to stay till 11 the day before to wait for some painting job to be done and how much do I get for staying back for an extra hour. $2.75. it's not even enough to buy me A PLATE OF CHICKEN RICE at the food court please! THE PAY'S HORRIBLE. I alrdy told my supervisor that i`m quitting in april and hopefully she lets me off by the 11th so that I can spend time with clarence yeo during his block leave. I feel like cheap labour cause i`m working like a full timer but paid like a part-timer. Life just reeks like that. word of advice: DO NOT JOIN WT!

Today, I just realized that I LOST MY ZARA TOP THAT I BOUGHT WITH MY VERY FIRST PAY LAST MONTH. I`ve not worn it, NOT ONCEEEEE..and it disappeared without a trace, like like magic!I still cant find it after searching my cupboard thrice. Didnt find it whilst combing my sister's and mom's closet either. Seriously, what have I done to deserve such bad luck? I sure hope things dont get worse from here.

Contrary to all the misfortunes, I felt like a blissful little kitten last saturday because the boyfriend brought me to this restaurant by the lake(actually it's more like a reservoir). Really appreciated the effort and money($$$$) he put in just to surprise me. AND I must say , this is probably one of the rarest outings so far which of course made me the happiest idiot. 2 more months to go before a year, cant wait for that day to come :D I know you`re having a tough time in the army and it really sucks for you to have less than half an hour with me over the phone every weekday but BMT will be over in 2 weeks. Am looking forward to your 12-day-block leave before you go back to serve your time :D

2010-02-24T21:09:00.003+08:00

I still love this picture although it has been nearly 2 years. the hues are just fantastic but the phone wasnt really userfriendly so i didnt continue to use it. sigh sigh sigh.

It's finally my off day today. I`ve been working for the past week without any break. As a part-timer I have to work at least 4 days and a minimum of 20 hours per week and i honestly dont mind working 5 days per week but this time i did 7. SO i`m kinda doing fulltime work but paid less? that just reeks,so bad. Work is bearable when there's smth to do. In this case, working at marina square dorothy perkins is less than bearable because it's a friggin cold store. When i say cold, it simply means it's pretty dead. Most of the time i'd find myself staring into space, going into the pantry to get a drink, checking my msgs and that pretty much sums up what i do everyday. Smetimes when I really have nth to do i'd star sweeping the floor with a dust absorber to occupy myself. GAH, i really didnt expect it to be that boring because no.1 marina is quite crowded, no.2 it's dorothy perkins and ppl shop at dorothy perkins. BUT NO, i guess not. I shld have opted for other jobs that involved more interaction since i`m the cannot-sit-still type. Working at dorothy perkins just made me realize how boring a retail job is not to mention the crazy backache after standing for 7 hours continuously. I know grousing can only give me temporary relieve.I have to live with it since i alrdy signed on. But i need to vent since i`m a super expressive person.Not intending to quit anytime soon but i`ll definitely look forward to the day i quit. freedom from doing nothing.LOL I really hope they`ll teach me more things and give me a life.

Anyway i`m really sorry to friends whom i've rejected to hang out with. Work is really taking up a huge portion of my time. I didnt even have the chance to spend time with my bf last weekend. I hope you girls understand.

Work till 7 tmr. PPL PLEASE COME IN AND GIVE ME SMTH TO DO.

2010-02-19T00:09:00.003+08:00

I like how you message me around 4.20 every morning because it shows that i`m the first person you think of every day.

hang in there. 2 months will be done in a breeze!p.s I miss your hair alrdy haha

2010-02-07T23:40:00.004+08:00

I`m listening to officially missing you by janice and sonia now.It is the 2nd day of clarence's army life today.From now on, I`ll look forward to all my weekends and make sure I spend some quality time with that boy. That would,unfortunately, mean that i'll have less time with my girlfriends but I`ll try my best to accomodate to everyone's schedule. Now that he's in army, I have practically nothing to do since I dont have a job. Like today, I spent my day packing my room, lazing arnd on my bed, watching videos ecetera. My phone was unusually quiet for the whole afternoon;smth that im trying very hard to get used too. It only rings arnd 9.40 when he calls to talk for prolly 15 mins or so? yes, a 9-10 hour wait in exchange for a 15 min phone call from him. That simply sucks. I feel that he's so unreachable, so far away from me. Whenever we talk he'd be rushing throughout the conversation, telling me how bored he is in army and then he'd ask me to hold on whilst he fumble arnd for smth somewhere in his bunk(since he'd be preparing for the next day) And you know i just feel so #&@^&$**&@(! about it because I cant even have a proper conversation with him but I cant blame anyone for that since it's part and parcel of army life. Honestly, I wonder if he'd feel this way if i were the one to enlist into army.

On the otherhand,I`ve been looking for a job to occupy my time whilst he's serving his time. Went to wingtai for a job interview few days back and they ACTUALLY called me twice to offer me a job but because yours truly was bathing, I didnt pick up and therefore didnt get the job. how fantastic? I know I shld be getting over it but i just feel very sore about it. Imagine getting all excited about working in adidas, fox or topshop, only to know that you missed out on the opportunity because you were in the toilet and didnt bring the phone in. Worse still,I actually know that some tpjcians got through and are now working at fox + topshop. It's like rubbing it in your face like " hey stupid, blame it on your bad luck!" :(Really am envious of all of them.I really wanted to work in adidas but now my hopes are dashed. I guess it's not meant to be. Am looking for a job as a temporary admin assistant/customer service or retail associate to spend my time and earn some cash now. SOMEONE PLEASE HIRE MEEEE D: D: D: !!

went swimming at his place on the 4th of feb:D

I CANT WAIT FOR 12TH FEB TO COME. HURRY UP AND BOOK OUT ALRDY!!!!

2010-01-07T00:07:00.004+08:00

Well, the pic above says it all. I dont spend all my time with my boyfriend because my girlfriend is important too! I finally met up with kay after a month and we decided to do some(actually alot of) shopping at somerset 313. Being a town idiot like i`ve always been, I havent really explored most of the new shopping malls except tamp 1 and iluma. I`ve only been to orchard ION once which is really pathetic because many of my friends have been there alrdy. So somerset 313 was yet another eye opener for this town moron here. Gigantic was the only word I could think of when I stepped into the mall. I mean like, I didnt expect the mall to be so big considering that singapore is so damn friggin' small. Forever 21 and Zara were like 4 storeys and 3 storeys high respectively which kinda make them the biggest outlets' in singapore. Kay and I took like 5 hours to wrap up the whole mall, returning home with two tops and a megawatt smile :D

Today was spent with the TPJC netballers yet again. Training started at 8.30 but yours truly reached school at 10.45 because she overslept again!(WHAT'S NEW)I didnt even get to play much because I went down so damn late. So much for exercising my fats away. I doubt it's going to happen now that there's no more p.e and netball training sessions. Speaking of p.e,I kinda miss having p.e because it not only keeps us fit;it helps us to relieve stress too. Wouldnt mind taking p.e as an a level subject if I was offered with the option. But hahahahaha, what are the chances man? 0.01 %? I think I shld stop dreaming the impossible.1.Lunch was at buddy hoagies with birdy,manda, mabel and pearlie. 2.Pool after that with B,A and M (BAM).Manda and I got terribly thrashed by Mabel and Birdy the prozxzs.3.Birdy and Manda managed to psycho me into watching avatar for the 2nd time and despite that, I still enjoyed the show , though not as much as the first.4.NETBALL GIRLS FTW. 5.I need more netball sessions so that my fats wont accumulate :/

OKay,I dont blame you for getting bored with this post cause it's so boring that I actually feel like sleeping now. SO I`M GONNA END HERE. bye..

bf's going in in another month. OH SHITZ

2010-01-03T00:12:00.006+08:00

HELLO I`M BACK AFTER A HIATUS, it`s finally 2010 people!
I dont know if I should welcome the year with joy or fear. As you know, the results will be released at the end of march and it`ll be one of the greatest turning point in my life. But since the results arent out yet, I`m going to cherish the remaining months of holiday and do nothing but play and work. It's gonna get boring along the way especially when clarence reports for army next month. I`ll be boy-friend-less for the next 2 years excluding the weekends.And I`m not liking the idea of it, not a single bit at all. Not after i`ve been so used to receiving his messages everyday, seeing him at least 3 times a week, slacking at his place almost every monday... and the list goes on. It's going to be tough and I dont know if we can go through it together. I dont think I can stand not having him by my side when I need him but i`ll try no matter what it takes.

Anyway I want to thank evryone who made 2009 a great year for me. As for those who didnt, I want to thank you guys for helping me learn valuable life lessons--eg.anger management. You guys make me realize how much more our society and I need to improve. Was reading last year's new year resolution and realized i kinda fulfilled some which was uh-ma-zing.
RESOLUTION #1.
~~Get more team players for A'div`09~~ and win 1 match,at least.( abit unrealistic but you`ll never know until you try(: )
RESOLUTION #2.
~~study~~ really hard and get extremly good results for A's ( uh huh the typical )
RESOLUTION #3.
~~Keep mommy happy.~~
RESOLUTION #4.
Get REALLY HOT ABS.(only a lump of fat achieved)
RESOLUTION #5.
~~nuu clothes, nuu bag, nuu shoes:D please?~~
RESOLUTION #6.
Prolly take up wakeboarding courses after a's?(COMING SOON)
RESOLUTION #7.
~~NOT TAKE CAB TO SCHOOL FOR 2 MONTHS( am seriously not gonna break this )~~awesomez!
RESOLUTION #8.
Learn to walk on heels( oh daaaamn )
RESOLUTION #9.
~~GET A HOT BF.~~ haha JUST KIDDING. make 2009 a happy year:D

and my resolution this year is to exercise my fats off, pull my sisters back to the right path and and be a loving girlfriend. simple enough.

For now, I really really need a job so that I can go on a shopping spreeeeeee. Totally forgot how to write a resume and most jobs online need one so yes.. if you have a job to introduce me please do soooo:D your help will be deeply appreciated and repaid.

Because i`m too lazy to write out all that i`ve done in the past month, i`ll let the pictures tell you what i`ve been doing.

28th dec: swimming with kimmywang

game at simei netball club with various people(TPJC NETBALLERS)

christmas at aunty sue's place with the boyfriend

christmas eve at his aunty's place

clarence yeo cooking dinner for me:D

haha i feel very blessed:D

okay going off now.
TO ALL MY GIRL PALS PLEASE MEET UP SOON BECAUSE YOUR LESSONS ARE GONNA TURN YOU GIRLS INTO BUSY LADIES! date me date me date me quick! i`ll save the time for you!

2009-12-09T19:15:00.003+08:00

RELAXXXXXXXXXXXX
I`ll be flying off to japan in approximately 4 hours people. It's finally time to relax after all the stress and pimple outbreaks.whoohoo! The only thing i`m going to miss is prom which is a pity but it's JAPAN i`m going to baby. it's going to be a blaaaaast!! The only thing i`m not looking forward to is the dry weather. I hope i dont start peeling like a banana, like how i did in vegas two years back. The stinging sensation was just unbearable and my face was lobster red throughout the entire trip. drats, not a very picture perfect trip i suppose.

wearing my winnie-the-pooh beanie

the shades he bought from taiwan
Anyway post A's has been rather boring?! I have been baking to while away time. Baked a cake and some cookies and i`m going to bake more after A's.. Other than that, i`ve been catching up on beauty sleep. Yes sleep, my favourite thing to do in my free time. Had a face painting and photography session which saw me sitting in front of a dslr; wide-eyed with a half-crooked smile.. Liye's art skills never fail to leave me in awe:D i`m so glad that she got a decent grade after all that hardwork.
let's hit the gym after i come back yang. Speaking of exercise, I miss playing netball so much! can someone organize a tms netball alumni match with the b'div?? please please please???

leophard preens

tiger and zipbraa preens

I`ll be back on the 16th! sayonaraaaaaaa

2009-11-27T23:13:00.005+08:00

It feels like the A's are entirely over although I still have one more paper to take. I`ve been shopping endlessly for the week and it just feels so liberating and exhilerating as compared to the weeks of mugging and stress last month. I feel so rejuvenated and carefree right now which isnt a good thing because i havent really got down to rereading my lit texts.SHINGZ. But life has been good ever since the disastrous econs paper and I hope paper 4 will be manageable. Havent really been doing well for lit after the midyears.It kinda affected my confidence in lit but nonetheless i`m going to spill all i know for paper 4. As i was saying shopping was awesomeeeee x1000. my mom bought us(sis and i) to shop at uniqlo for winterwear and cotton on for cheap trendy clothes & lingerie.

Besides that I also accompanied clar to shop for his prom blazer and did a little bit of window shopping. I really liked this newspaper print grey top from topshop,fourskins shirt,riverisland wallet, ripcurl wallet and cap but i love my monaye more so i decided to hold those temptations back. Had a great meal at kenny rogers for dinner since that day marked our 6th month. yes, it's been half a year. Time flies like a rocket and i felt like i just knew him a month ago. BUT NO it has been 6 MONTHS and he's still as retarded as ever, i like.

look at the knife!
After dinner, I bought a breezer to share; the first time i actually purchased alcohol after my 18th birthday. We excitedly headed to the waterfront to celebrate my success. Then, he told me to open it since it was my first legal alcoholic drink. I DID, and we never got to drink it because the cap got stuck in the bottle opener. it was so damn bloody exasperating. I cant believe i wasted 6.50 just like that, damnit. STUPID BOTTLE OPENER.lesson number 1: never trust claudia to open a bottle of booze.
irritating fella decided to move whilst we were taking this pic just to annoy me. AND I REALLY LIKE THIS PICTURE!urghhhhhh.

anyway i decided to stop here cause my show just started. HAHA bye bye.
YANGLIYE I MISS YOU TOO:D

2009-11-11T15:50:00.003+08:00

what i dont want to see on result day

I know i`m not supposed to be so pessimistic but i`m not exactly hopeful after screwing up my Human section for geog and AQ for GP. I`m just praying that i`ll get a decent grade so I can advance to UNI. Got to start pulling up my socks for the rest of the subjects especially lit and econs. I really really want to get into SMU or NUS:(

2009-11-03T09:27:00.003+08:00

Here I am, up at 9.30 because I messed up my consultation dates. I actually woke up at 7.30 am this morning to prepare for school when I slept around 4 last night. And my maid sings at my door like a whisperer every morning, walking in and out of my room like a shadow after her first call without coming over to see if i`m awake. Yea I know i shldnt be complaining because others have to wake up themselves BUT it really irks me everytime she tries to wake me up. Looks like i've gotta depend on myself to wake up for the A's. I`ll put 2 alarmclocks at my bedside and pray that i`ll wake up because I HATE WAKING UP IN THE MORNING.it'd better work.

Now that i`m home i decided not to go back to sleep because i've got a consult later at 12.I need to rest for a while before I go back to my notes. Yesterday was one hell of a time waster because I spent 4 hours trying to drill chunks of information on earthquakes into my head. JUST EARTHQUAKES ALONE.SHINGZ. going to start on volcanoes, massmovement and weathering today. Finish today and i`ll be able to start on human geog tmr.plans cannt scroo up.As for MATH, i`m just going to do whatever i can as I dont see myself getting anything more than a E OR D? I`m just being realistic.

(my favourite lemon picture)

Anyhow anyhoos, it was Clarence Yeo's 19th birthday on SUNDAY, 1ST NOVEMBER 2009.
Had a great dinner with his family at punggol seafood centre.I think I became 2kg heavier after the buffet.In other words, I grew FATTER luh. Buffets are sucha sin. I swear i`m going to go on a rigorous exercise regimen after A's. But his presence made my day anyway and mine made his too:D a happy and heartwarming celebration afterall. better study hard ah you, 1 more week left. stop playing proevolution soccer and mobsters(omg la, i sound damn auntie cause of you).

OKAY, i better start on some work now. buzzing out.

2009-10-29T01:28:00.005+08:00

I need soma, can you give me some?

I wish I could run away from all the troubles in the world,
I wish I could lie on a patch of grass and be oblivious to what's going on,
~~I wish that you can lie on this patch with me but you cant~~,
I wish for a peaceful life filled with joy and laughter.
I wish I cant feel the excruciating pain she is feeling right now,
I wish I could turn back time and be a greater comfort to her,
I wish for all this unfortunate events to be gone.

I wish for someone to hear this but it's just so hard to get it through that someone because he`ll never understand how much she means to me.

I wish that I`m strong enough to hang on right now.
I wish that I was self-reliant so I neednt bother others to listen to my misfortunes
I wish I was emotionless so I neednt feel a thing.
I wish I can have the answers to all the pressing issues around me
I wish for everything to be back to how it was in the past.

someone please tell me why it's so hard?
dont worry i`m fine.
claudia is strong
she doesnt need anyone to fend for her.

2009-10-17T21:21:00.014+08:00

Yesterday was the LAST official day of school after one and a half years of my TPJC journey. I must say that i`m really glad that i`m out of TPJ despite having a really good first impression when I first stepped into this school. There's gonna be no more rushing for bus 12 early in the morn, no more angsty feelings towards the disorganized school system,no more walking round the canteen to decide what to eat amongst the limited variety of food, no more worrying about what other hypocrites think of me, no more attitude problem and feelings of biasness from the teachers, no more blessings for the day from ms.choo, no more long assembly.. and the list goes on and on. That's how bad TPJC is in my eyes because TEMASEK was contrastingly fantastic in every aspect.

Yet, yesterday's celebration managed to spark off a tinge of sadness in me. Queer isnt it? It's so ironic how i`ve always been looking forward to leave tpjc yet when it's time to go I feel kinda upset.I guess time really flies. Before I know it i`d be in the exam hall, finding all the answers in the pockets of my brain and soon after i`d be fretting in the same hall, awaiting the release of my results and so on and so forth. Words cant explain how worried I am for the A's and i seem to be giving up hope day by day which shldnt be the case but I am. I really am. I`m trying hard to fight on. I still remember the goal I made at the start of my J1 year-- to work hard for the A's so that i wont regret like how i did for my o's. And with that in mind I hope i can and will persist.

But being in Jc is not all about getting good grades for A's. For the past 2 years, numerous friends have walked in and out of my lives. Bestfriends who`ve shared weal and woe with me in tpjc, teammates whom i've shared buckets of sweat and countless memories with, hypocritical friends whom i`ve always abhorred but am forced to flash a smile whenever i see em', egoistical friends that never fail to turn me off, bitchy friends which i try to isolate myself from, crazy friends that keep me high and free, understanding friends whose ears are always available for my rants. There are many different types of friends around me but how many can i keep? 20?15?10? It's safe to say that 5 will be the approximate number that i`ll still keep in close contact with. perhaps 10? heh i`ll find out in another few years time.

Well, let's just take a walk down the tpjc memory lane for now

these were the first few close friends in TPJ.now i`m only close to two of em'.

next there's 08A03 whom i`ve spent most of my time with in school for the past 2 years. i`m sure we`ll all graduate with smiles on our faces.

THE NYEH CLAN

TPJC NETBALL has been the source of my happiness in school and the netball court and area is the only place in school that i`ll miss the most.

I`ll never forget sleeping at the netball area with my towel over my face, stoning and emoing at the steps, spraining my ankle for the very first time near the court, gossip sessions in the shelter.everything we`ve done in the entire netball area(including the court). And i really treasured evry moment spent with you wonderful girls who`ve never failed to brighten up my days in TPJ. i love you my netballers.

Another group of people who will be deeply etched in my heart are the bintaners.

I`ll never forget the 4d3n camp in bintan with you guys.Awesome people with awesome personalities. I personally feel that athletes are nicer people as compared to non-athletes.

THE 0GLLLLLLLLLS

MY 09S15

SIMPANG PRATA GANG

LAST BUT NOT LEAST CLARENCE YEO.
I THANK TPJC FOR LETTING ME MEET HIM.

I cant deny that I didnt enjoy my stay in tpjc at all because of all these people who`ve made my journey a rather fulfilling one but i`m still awfully happy that i`m out of tpjc.:D

on a side note: I SERIOUSLY NEED TO SLIM DOWN AND TAN!!!! I CANNT STAND MY BODY AND FACE. LIKE TO THE MAX. sheeeesh. back to math now. study hard people! BYEEEEEEEEE

2009-09-09T16:28:00.004+08:00

A few more hours to my sweet 18 and I dont feel a tad bit excited about it like in previous years. Well,my birthday doesnt exempt me from studying for prelims, doesnt magically dissolve my fatigue, doesnt give me any special treatment( except for wagyu with my family and clar), doesnt excuse me from school, doesnt... and the list goes on.
So what's the big deal about birthdays aside from the well wishes and maybe 1 or 2 presents?
Doubt i`m gonna receive any this year anyway. Beside's the people in TPJ are not people whom i wish to celebrate with.

Looking at it from a brighter perspective, though, would mean i`ll be a year older, i`ll grow taller?(okay maybe not), I can drink and buy booze, I can watch M18 movies, I can go clubbing(?). But these are just secondary because the most important thing about birthdays is the company. And by that, I am referring to the company of family and friends who will make time to celebrate your birthday no matter how busy they are.I cant ask for anything more (:

ANYWAY, I was supposed to head down for morning math lessons and lit consult today but I came home with a splitting headache late last night and went to see the doc this morning. Was diagnosed with a migraine as expected and the doc gave me some medicine to stop the pain BUT this migraine problem will not cease until I OUTGROW IT like how my mom did. So i`m supposed to expect more migraines to come my way because it's a hereditary condition inherited from my mom.Unlucky or what? My mom told me that her condition used to be worse than mine at my age AND that vomitting was a very normal symptom. BUT WTH, IT'S DAMN BLOODY PAINFUL LUH. it's like 10 fingers pressing against my head simultaneously and i`d feel like vomitting out evrything I eat. Worse still, I`d be tossing and turning on my bed after that with the pain still lingering in my head. The thing is my migraine only comes when i`m stressed(MUGGGGGIIIIING) so i`m in for more migraines in preparation for my A'S.
I AM SO SCREWED.

2009-08-10T23:31:00.004+08:00

Yes, I am S-I-C-K sick again. Omg I cant believe that im so weak and susceptible to viruses around me.I think I caught the virus at ndp yesterday because i couldnt stop sneezing as we went into the middle section of the performance. besides that, my sister has also been sick for the past few days-- coughing her lungs out everynight, and it doesnt help that i`m sleeping next to her.BUT STILL, sick again, after like what? a month? A to the N to the N to the O-Y-I-N-G!I HATE being SICK.

Am gonna miss 2 days of school because of this dreaded flu&cough. it's not about the work that i`m worried about but rather the tests and the fact that i cant see YW for the next 2 days or maybe longer if it gets worse.I`m worried okay, what if it spirals to something worse.AND I cant bloody study at home for nuts, especially so when i`m all groggy from the medicine. it's definitely something to worry at a time like this when the prelims are BUT 2 weeks away! oh gosh oh gosh, panic manic mode please. Im so perturbed by it luh. Have to push myself to study D:

On the otherhand, I think I mentioned ndp? Yup,I was there to celebrate Singapore's 44th birthday and it was a total blast. Not so much for yw though cause he's probably used to all the programmes. But the colourful animations, the hilarious hosts, melodious singers and the spetacular fireworks left me applauding in awe. You know how much of a sucker I am for fireworks, and yesterday's one was a really fruitful catch for me cameeera:D Of course i cant leave out the wonderful company of YW and his parents because without them, I would be sitting at home, watching those scenes from my tv screen. Forget about the humid weather and MY SNEEZING.the annual performance that we see on the screen is so much better live. more so when i`m with yw(:

alright i`m really beat now, need to catch some rest after taking my med. will upload pics once i`ve the time.oh did i tell you that my laptop died on me this morning.I seriously cant get any luckier. GOODNIGHT.

2009-08-02T02:11:00.009+08:00

I am very tired
math.obnoxious sister.you.dad.insecurity.

Queer, how problems arrive one after another
how they suffocate me like a merciless pair of strong hands.
I should pick up some form of release to prevent my thoughts from wandering

I just want you to be happy. sorry

goodnight

2009-07-26T23:58:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow marks the day of pure fatigue as what is known as the collapse time table will emerge to torture my life, making me a prisoner to the books and lecture notes that I very much hate to regard as holy scriptures( i know some insane people do)which will lead me to nirvana( think good results after As). The word collapse itself is enough to show you the state i`ll literally be in upon reaching home but sadly enough, i`ve to learn to cope with this until the A's D:
One thing's for sure though, i would definitely be loving my bed,pillow and bolster more more more.

so hello disgusting starprogrammes + night study sessions and goodbye freedom.

Goodnight, will update if i have the time and energy tmr.

2009-07-08T17:28:00.014+08:00

I`ll make em' good ~~girls~~boys go bad

Today,I came back early with the intention to get some sleep after a semi-heavy lunch but I decided not to succumb to temptation in the end because I`ve been sleeping my afternoons away during the holidays and I seriously need to adjust my body clock which has been going haywire for the past month or so.The good news is: none of my results have been returned which is good because it'd prolonged the happy-go-lucky days that I still have before the disastrous results strike hard on reality. Well,I`d be lying if I said I didnt want to know my results at all despite it being demoralising, because I do want to know how much more I`ve to study in order to grasp the concepts. But it's just the disappointment that gets to me the most because I`d get so demotivated when I get such lousy grades for subjects which I did put in some effort to study. The only thing I can do now is to wait for my results and start studying like mad to ensure that the last 4 months are properly utilized. I hope i`m disciplined enough to last though because 4 months seem like a really long long long long time. :/

Gah,enough about SAs.
I finally met up with YW on youth day after 5 days of not meeting him due to the exams and me spending some time with all my besties.
Even my mom, who's supposed to take my side, went against me luh.
mom: " why you never go out with your clarence"
c: "huh, I`m going out with my friends today what, plus he also not free evryday"
mom: " wha I feel sad for him.. got a gf like you who cant be bothered."
what is this! she hasnt even met him yet..
yes people, she knows, she knoooows
well, being a couple doesnt equate to meeting evry day right because we still do have our individual lives and friends, besides this is good practice for me since he'd be going to NS next year (haha botak).

So we met at IKEA and went around looking at the different design concepts of the showrooms, not to mention the awesome furniture that has never failed to entice my itchy fingers because I`d go around touching everything that is within my reach.It's like evrytime I go to Ikea, I would think of how I want my room revamped and how I`d want this lamp and that wardrobe and that picture frame and whatever that catches my eye to be IN MY IMAGINARY ROOM. I also have this tendency to go around bouncing on evry bed I come across to test the comfortability and softness of it. yes, some cheap thrill that I derive joy from. YW kept laughing at me when I did that until he jumped onto a foam mattress and experienced the feeling of it himself, pneumatic alright. LOL.

AND WHAT'RE IKEA DAYS WITHOUT ANY PICTURES RIGHT? so there you have them..

bodo mattress. haha!
macham his shower tub

daydreaming in the toilet

colourful furniture

Dinner ended really well with his clique at bedok 85 market. I mean, what can possibly be bad at bedok 85, the food's AWESOME but I still think ECP wins hands down.

And I spent the day before with yang because she wanted to come to my place to sweeeeem despite it being overcast with clouds.Took tonnes of photos with my photobooth application after her swimming( and ang moh boy interaction ) session.

and we brought micky in to join us in our photofun madness

i have more but i`m too lazy to post up evrything especially liye's retarded video(hahahaha,i know you`d kill me if i do) so till then!:D

this song evokes a lot of good and bad memories

2009-07-04T23:58:00.007+08:00

this s p a c e is finally revived after 2 gruelling weeks of last minute mugging. Now that the exams are done and over with,I met up with the usuals to rollerblade this afternoon. And I must say that it didnt exactly start on a good note because of the rain that dragged our plans by 1 1/2 hours, my monthly cramp which made me feel like crap, my ipod that died on me once again and my absentmindedness because i forgot to bring my ezlinkcard. But evrything dissipated the moment I met those happy girls, haha and syaaaaaf practised her chinese accent(conversational chinese) on us which kinda made me laugh my cramps away. (HEH sorry syaf, but it was reaaaaally funny. keep practising girl, you can do it!)

Rented blades upon reaching pasir ris park and bladed for 2 whole hours.

Our initial plans to prawn was cancelled after our blading session because we were quite worn out by then and prawning was quite expensive with a rate of 13/hr. So we walked over to ehub and had bbqchicken followed by the usual board games at nebo for 2/hr. This time we played taboo and unostacko:D we were laughing so hard that people around us were staring, giving that can-you-please-shut-up look which kinda annoyed me a little because helloooooo, this is a games cafe & this is all part of the fun. gah, okay pms pms pms pms.
BUT THEN AGAIN HOW CAN ANYONE GET ANNOYED WITH SUCH GREAT COMPANY LIKE THEM.
Oh how I miss our tms days, sigh sigh sigh.

clarenceyeoyw brought me for a haircut for our first month, hahahahahahah. and it's all in the name for SA2 because we didnt want to risk getting our marks deducted for long hair..

did some studying at ehub coffeebean after that & caught transformers at night.
boo at life: straitstime for giving it a half star rating because TRANSFORMERS WAS ONE HELL OF AN ACTION PACKED MOVIE that kept me jolted to my seat the whole time. There was no way anyone could sleep in such a thrilling movie like this and not to mention the very sexy megan fox who definitely added some "flavour" to the show if you know what I mean. she's not a man, NOT A MAN I SAY. even clar was getting excited, HAHA, just kidding. Had a great time with you yw and i thought we had a thoughtful first that day despite it being so different but that's what makes us special(:
i like this little-boy haircut which he doesnt .____.

this was taken on 24/6 when our plans for rollerblading got cancelled and we spent our night at nebo playing uno stacko:D

they are just so awesome and the song's amaziiiiiiiing. love love love this piece.

I wonder

2009-06-21T22:54:00.006+08:00

give me a lesson on how to steal,
steal a heart,
as fast as you stole mine,
as you stole mine...

Today, being daddy's day, saw me spending lunch at tunglok seafood restaurant with my family. Mom and Dad gave us three a talk on life, leaving us to ponder about life's unfathomability as we savoured our delicious dimsum and sashimi . Next thing I knew, everyone went different ways with plans clearly inscribed in their heads, leaving me stranded at home which wasnt very new actually but it required me to settle dinner ALONE. So it was just micky and I keeping each other company but deepdown I honestly enjoyed it though it meant getting my own dinner from the coffeeshop down hill, fixing dog-food for micky, washing up on everything after that. There was this great sense of accomplishment that I relished despite everything being so troublesome. Yea you'd think it's troublesome if you live up a hill like me.

And before settling dinner for my dog and I, I managed to sit myself at the dining table with my math tutorials strewn all over the table for two-three hours. This, alone, was quite an achievement for me considering that i`ve been getting bouts of headaches whenever it came to attempting math questions.What's worse is that we`re coming to the last week of the holidays and I have yet to touch geography,at all. AT ALL. sometimes I just wish for life to reach a standstill :/

I cant thank you enough for being there so unconditionally clarence.

2009-06-16T23:55:00.008+08:00

The last few days were very much centred around the besties and YW, which kinda shows how much work I`ve actually done.But what's the holidays without any FUN right?For this, I thank them for playing an essential part in making my holidays a fruitful one else it would totally stink of lecture notes and nothing more. Speaking of lecture notes, i`m finally half-way done with DSE for econs, leaving me with the other half and market failure to complete for the entire SA2 syllabus. Then there's the math revision sets which i've yet to lay my hands on save for one half of revision set 1, another thing to complete before I feel ready to tackle SA2.I truly hope i wont be much of a disappointment this time:/ fingers crossed.

So I meT-up with the SISTERS where we had a story spilling session over a simple dinner at BK, laughing our hearts out when it came to syaf's and szeman's story, gasping at mine, shocked and somewhat disappointed with neena's. As we were talking I couldnt help but notice the many changes that had overwhelmed us in a matter of months.How unpredictable life can be as it meanders through time. So what exactly is eternity when it doesnt exist, forever's just a fallacy.

syaf and shirley

a very happy szeman and a shocked claudia

Couldnt resist the SALE segment at f.o.x when we walked past it so I succumbed to temptation and bought a top AGAIN.well, it's casual and i like casual so no topshop for me.

Another outing was the simpang prata date that gave me the chance to catch up with the jc-migrant yichao and my long-lost friend joel.Cheng and I took the chance to disturb yichao, comparing his super tanned skin-colour to the waiters *ahem*. (He can totally blend in with them luh.) Strolled to the nearby park after dinner and lepaked like how all tmsekians do just that we had joel with us that day and took many retarded photos.

bugger yichao

ziqing and her nasiayam blackpepper

joel

yichao the milo

So the prata date ended on a very high note, leaving joel and I to have a chat on our journey home.Well,It's been a really long time since we chatted amicably joel, and i know you`ve been through a lot but really, it's your life and you must start learning to make right decisions. I`m in no position to say anything, so yea I hope you understand.

TODAY, (JENG JENG JENG...)
was spent in vain searching for the perfect pair of slippers from ripcurl because I eventually settled for the 2nd or maybe, the 3rd best. The one that I really wanted didnt have my size in all the ripcurl outlets of singapore so yea, i got this pair which looks really similar to my billabong one. Wasnt exactly hyped up about it but well, since i cant deny that it's pretty and practical, i reckon`ll grow to like it more in time to come. Throughout the trip, though, i was struggling with a blocked nose leaving me zonked out in the midst of my shopping trip with YW. With much grace, he took it really well and was accomodating all the way by letting me rest when i needed to(: What really warmed my heart was when we played "falling slowly" together at carrefour after he taught me the basic right-hand notes for it( although I probably ruined the piece at some point with my super rusty piano skills.)
THANKS for making this trip a great one<3 & for putting up with my blocked nose the whole time. haha

am in love with this song though her voice is a little shrilly. go hey monday:D

2009-06-09T23:59:00.007+08:00

Today, YW & I mrt-ed our way down to queensway for some sports shopping after school. You could see that our faces lit up the moment we set foot into the shopping centre, rushing over to the shoe racks and the pretty jerseys like little kids swarm towards candy. It was great seeing YW so happy upon coming across so many colourful soccer boots from nike, adidas and all other brands alike.Well, being a soccer fanatic, it was obviously a very big deal to him. As for myself, i pretty much indulged in his soccershoes fetish as well, looking out for smaller ones that my small feet could fit into. Eventually set my eye on this adidas pair which I got at the very end of our queensway shopping frenzy:D:D:D

size 3 1/2 for the extremely small feet and it only costs me an amazing 39 buckeroos. FOR KIDS SOCCER SHOES. oh yay, you dont know how friggin' happy I am at this good buy!(I think i totally drowned in happiness after that)

I wasnt the only one who bagged home good buys, my YW also bought a nice red nike soccerball and a pair of quiksilver flipflops for less than 50 in total.

That's what good shopping buys can do to you; the feeling's almost magical after paying the moolah with no regrets attached. BESIDES, it's not everyday that we get to go to queensway so that very much adds up to all the excitement pertaining to all our good buys.
Our aim to get slippers together,however, was only half-fulfilled since none of the slippers caught my eye at queensway. So we`re gonna get it sometime this week or next week and i`m hoping that ripcurl or roxy has smth that appeals to me:D <3 GSS TO THE MAX. If possible,I would try to squeeze some time to head back to queensway with my mom to get the gorgeous sportsbras, tops and BAGPACKS(omg omg omg, am in love with that limegreen kappa one.) SHALL SCHEDULE.

Meanwhile I shld totally hit my books/lecturenotes and stop thinking of more holiday plans
I know right, me telling myself that, when i dont actually exercise it, but i`ll try my best because i dont want to get another huge disappointment especially when the A's are coming. Thank god i've got YW to encourage me to study or i`d be procrastinating most of the time. let's pray that we`ll do well together

Last peek at the prettaye shoes,am going to wear it when school reopens.
TILL THEN goodnight:D

2009-06-06T01:35:00.013+08:00

Paid a little visit to the birthday lady and surprised her(okay not really since she kinda guessed it) with a cake from starbucks and some other stuff. I`m really glad that you liked this mini impromptu celebration because I thought that it was rather slipshodD: We must head out some day so that I can make it up to you with a proper gift. Will wait for your hols yang! Seventeen doesnt last forever so live your 17th year well and may god bless you with the loveliest things bestfriend.(i.e a hot boyfriend, $$$ and good family r/ship)

with the help of my C.T.A(: thanks for all the help<3

finally seventeen

Life's been doing me good for the past month and i`m starting to love life a little bit more albeit the fact that there are still many stressfactors weighing down my shoulders. The holidays, on the contrary, havent exactly been doing me much good in terms of studying since i`m now at the expense of my comfortable bed and tempting computer which I never fail to succumb to. But one thing's for sure, i`m getting double or treble the amt of rest that i've been lusting after for for a really long time. Double to the rest also means that i've been slacking away, deviating from my daily staples(I KNOW RIGHT), smth that people call HOMEWORK & REVISION.OH-THE-HORROR.

I seriously cant bring myself to even lift my pen when it comes to HOMEWORK, especially when it comes to math, the longest foe in claudia history. WHY, WHY IN THE WORLD DID I TAKE H2 MATH? and i`m suffering the wrath of my error in judgement, having no other choice but to deal with it.Somehow, it's been a week and all I`ve done is a little bit of POE and uh. let's see yea. a little bit of POE and nothing more which obviously wont suffice because SA2's in another 3 weeks!! I NEED THAT TRIGGERRRRR TO BLAST MY BRAINS so that it will no longer snooze and that trigger, i now know, is none other than YEO.Y.W! so YEO Y.W please continue to pump, "you must study" in my brain to ensure that i dont lose my focus.AND I`LL PUMP YOURS if it helps:P

Havent been updating you guys with what's going on in my life as well.

there was SPORTS DAY which wasnt in the least bit fun or loud or entertaining.
It was pathetic without any cheering, any cheerleading. A major turn off i would say because all we were asked to do is to watch people run. yea, watch people run. How fun's that?!

OGL group picture

went off to celebrate amirah's birthday with the 08s16 people and caught angels and demons which totally intrigued me with it's twisted storyline.TWISTED with logic, I like.

Next up SL project.
We ended up setting up a fundraising booth and exhibition to settle our pain-in-the-*** SL issue. Baked cookies, made chocolates and even muffins to sell which kinda took up most of the time in the week.Well, I know,for sure, that my oreo chocolate took me hours and tonnes of effort to complete and I`m awfully glad that my efforts and most importantly,the class efforts' paid off. Speaking of profit, I shld totally sell my oreo chocolate recipe for 5 bucks each.:P any takers?
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Sister's day out with the usuals at littleindia and illumina(or whatever you spell that)
Needless to say, it was another perfect day out with my close buds:D
I cant wait for our next trip to jurongeast or sentosaaaaa<3

HOT STUFF HOT STUFF WHOO:D

shir's birthday celebration.

Netball outings with the usual gang: Gloria, Amanda and Birdy
Finally got my first tpj netball medal last saturday when tpj netball participated in some mini-carnival at springfield. It wasnt exactly a very honourable win since we were the only jc that participated which meant that the rest of the teams comprised of b'div and primary school divisions.

but,OH well, it beats having nothing at all right:P
4 of us then hitched a ride from ms. shah to parkway and continued with our plans to cycle and gelare at ecp after lunch.

Cycling was torturous with the horrible muscle aches and gelare turned out to be a big disappointment because it got replaced by some "UK FUN FUN CAFE" that sold some cheapo bubble tea. PFFT, we want our gelare back, you hear?! Disappointed, we left for macs and went home afterthat.

Lit make-up was enriching and we spent a record of 4 hours sitting and walking arnd the air-port like aimless souls instead of studying after that. please applaud.

I think we make quite a good imitation

Bollywood my friends, bollywood.

Headed to ECP for dinner with yeo y.w after his practice. On the way, we saw this really really Beautiful but HUUUUUGE DOG. It was so pretty that I couldnt resist the temptation to touch it. So I went on to pat its head,thinking that it would do me no harm since it had a muzzle strapped around its mouth, and evrything seemed fine for about 3 seconds UNTIL it suddenly charged at me and...
BIT A HOLE IN MY SHIRT, CAUSING AN UGLY SCAR ON MY TUMMY.
stunned by the attack, I stood there instantaneouly only to be pulled away by YW just in time. GAH, felt like a total fool at that moment but then again who'd expect that crazily beautiful dog to bite me, right infront of him somemore. SO EMBARRASSING!:(

now i`ve this wonderfully carved wound in my tummy, all thanks to that sickening dog and my itchy hands.

LAST BUT NOT LEAST PANORAMAAAAA.(i know you`ve been waiting for this)
Tried to surprise YW but totally failed because he actually knew about the surprise quite some time ago. So much for wanting to show some last min support. Point is, I enjoyed myself at the Panorama performance with my dearest BINTAN-ERS who brightened up my day just by being themselves.

unglam luh huiyi. tsktsk

The joy of being with the Bintan-ers is such that we dont have to hide our trueselves from one another. that's what makes us special.

huiyi!

AND I LIKED THE PERCUSSION ITEM THE MOST BECAUSE SOMEBODY WAS PERFORMING IN IT. SOMEBODY NAMED CLARENCE YEO Y.W.

alright, that's one majorly long entry.
That brings me to several reminders to end off:
1.~~TIDY UP ROOM~~
2.~~FILE UP NOTES~~
3. COMPLETE CORRELATION AND FINISH ANNOTATING RUEMORGUE.

STUDY HARD PEOPLE:D

2009-06-05T00:16:00.005+08:00

Happy 17th Birthday Liye!

2009-05-17T21:51:00.002+08:00

Failure is not a failure until you accept defeat
I wont take defeat for an answer

2009-05-09T22:47:00.002+08:00

HAFIZUDDIN YOU RETARD!

2009-05-07T17:28:00.006+08:00

The breakdown.
'Cause theres beauty in the breakdown.
It's so amazing here,
'cause theres beauty in the breakdown.

Tears welled up my eyes when this song played on shuffle mode today
It is only now that I`ve realized what i've lost.
I`m sorry it took me so long to understand the intentions you had.
Yet I question if things had to turn out this way?

I`m really not ready for anything now.
I`m sorry
I need time.

I've been thinking a lot recently and somehow I feel like something is bent on rupturing my mind into numerous pieces. Whatever it is, it is pushing me to my limits by making me think think think.
Oh how I wish I could just shrug off all these burdens on my shoulder and run off like an irresponsible brat with nothing to care in this world.
Y`know,I never did understand zach's rationale of emo-ing alone at ecp even when there wasnt anything to worry about.
But now I comprehend the need for it because sometimes you just have to set some time aside to think through , to look at your life like it's a motion picture on rewind.
I think I really need that now.

2009-04-30T15:29:00.005+08:00

Yesterday marked the end of our a'div journey, the end of our tiresome yet worthwhile fights.
Despite losing every game, I`m extremely proud for the great deal of effort put in and the buckets of sweat we've contributed throughout this 1-2 month period. Not to mention the emotional pressure drilled upon us by coach himself and other factors that could have affected us in some way or another. In fact, winning wasnt even our main concern because we knew that we'd never make it into the 2nd round against teams like ACJ and TJ. But i`m glad we never gave up and continued to push on up till the last match(toughest match) against ACJ. Every moment, with the team, whether bitter or sweet, will be framed up and stored in the living memory of my mindpool,not forgetting the adrenaline rush after every winning shot( i love it okay ).

LAST BUT NOT LEAST,I LOVE ALL OF YOU MY DEAR TPJ NETBALLERS, AND I THANK YOU GIRLS FOR ALL THE JOY YOU'VE GIVEN ME IN JC BECAUSE YOU PEOPLE ARE ONE CRAZY BUNCH(and perhaps the only one in tpj because others would term us as weird and what not?!)

Apart from that, I would like to apologize for showing my temper on court if I did and if i have hurt any of you inevitably.This is especially for yesterday's game because i let my tired state and sorethroat reign over my mind&body and ended up getting really flustered.

midfielders plus mabel

On a brighter note, I can finally concentrate on catching up and revising now that the a'divs are over.No more sleep-in-class-because-i've-been-running-alot-yesterday and crazy muscle aches that make me waddle about like a duck.
WATCH OUT SA2, I`M GONNA ~~PAWN~~PWN YOU!

lengthy shooters plus defenders

For now,literally, i`mma rest.( i know right, how to pwn sa2 if i`m sucha slacker)
I actually decided to give myself a break today because i`m having a sorethroat which isnt all that bad but yea, i`m still S-I-C-K which makes me entitled to a MC:D
Nothing beats this long awaited break/rest I`ve been wanting since a month or 2.
I reckon 4 days would be enough to get me about and going again for studies.
Infact, i would be doing my fair share of catching up during this 4 days.
But of course there should be a limit to studying and a well-deserved break every now and then so i've decided to reward myself with wolverine over the weekend:D
ANOTHER EPIC XMEN MOVIE for the x-men fanatic-- ME CLAUDIA SUPRA I! cool or what?!

and i feel so sore about missing out on all the gravy-coated, taste-shackening food that i`m not able to eat. I WANNA GET WELL SOON AND GO ON AN EATING PLUS SHOPPING SPREE.
ANY TAKERS?? i've been wanting to go to queensway since forever. My black/white/red saucony shorts is still waiting for me but well i've a feeling that it has dissipated into thin air because the last i saw of it was in june 2008. PFFFT. can only blame myself for being so indecisive then, I mean, it was a whole 23 bucks for the running shorts okay:( the thought of it makes me sad

and i've still got so much on my MUST-COMPLETE-BY-THIS-WEEK LIST
-sample testing
-work on hypothesis testing
-gp& lit sa1 essay rewrite
-geog tutorial questions
-lit annotations for shadows of the wing.
- econs essay question 5(a) &(b)
WHICH MAKES MY LIFE EVEN MORE DEPRESSING?
homework overload much?!

2009-04-25T22:28:00.002+08:00

idk how you can think that i`m your friend when you`re so cautious of me.
you think of me like i'm holding a dagger behind my back, ready to stab you when the chance arises.
can you understand how i feel for once?
Is that a lot to ask from you because i`ve lost 2 close friends alrdy and I dont wanna lose you too.(i`m not being insincere)
i really dont know how else I can open up to you when you always misread what i have to say and I really dont wish to fight with you whenever i get defensive of how you feel.

( f.y.i i`m not trying to gain sympathy/empathy like you think i always do. i`m at my wits end because you ignored my msg )

I am ambivalent

2009-04-23T21:53:00.003+08:00

I hate how images flit around the bottomless pit in my head.
How they enjoy toying with my heartstrings come every quiet moment.
Slowly but strongly, they sting my wretched mind; not once not twice but countless times.
These mind boggling pictures, they come and go.
And sometimes I'd wish I was devoid of feelings so I neednt ponder over them from time to time.
To me,each endeavour is a lesson learnt accompanied with a new phobia.
A phobia that will,essentially, be difficult to conquer.
A phobia that I will have to overcome if things were to work out.
Something to fill the empty space from what used to occupy it.
Help me.
I need to overcome this phobia to start anew.

2009-04-21T22:03:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIRLEY QUAH XUE LI

2009-04-13T21:13:00.010+08:00

I adore indulging in the past where there's no hypocrisy, no intensity, no awkwardness;
just gleeful,unglam souls who get together in the name of fun.
Friendships that transcend beyond mere acquaintancy.
That was exactly what I felt yesterday when I met up for a simple dinner with neena,syaf and shir(lai cldnt make it:( ).
I must say that the meal wasnt all that fantastic.
It was, infact, just a mundane KFC meal.
But i`m sure all of us enjoyed each others' company and I guess that's the main purpose of meeting up is it not?
Us, being there for one another despite our busy schedules and homework.
I just want to tell you girls that I really miss the times we spent together in TMS.
And I`m extremely glad that we still maintained this friendship even though we`re out of tms(except shir ah but you`d be done with your last year soon enough to join syaf in nyp.)

more pictures to come.too lazy to upload em' all.

the upcoming A div is taunting my mind and I cant help but feel pressurized by my inner voice. I still dont know what I`m lacking in and am not in the least bit prepared for this competition at all.
Gloria told me that everything would turn out fine as long as I dont pressurize myself too much because I`ll tend to lose my cool on court and hence resulting in a causative effect on the rest of the mates.
And she did hit the nail on the head because I do have the tendency to start panicking once things doesnt seem right.
But i`ll do whatever it takes to fight for this Adiv because we've trained hard for it and it's time we reap the fruit that we've sowed for the past 2-3 months.
LET'S DO THIS TPJ netball!FIGHT HARD!

I wont let my focus dwindle like how yours did.

2009-04-06T21:34:00.004+08:00

SA1 results ~~was sucha~~was a tragic disappointment :/
Seriously felt like crying when I got back my lit paper because I was so upset with the results and how i've done overall.
Never in my entire jc life have I done so badly before.
But well,reality hits harder than a rock.
The truth is, I SUCK in netball, academics, friendships and everything else that's going wrong.
And I dont know how long more I can cope with all this.
Been leading life in a blank and I`m still trying to find out what's wrong with me.
Can someone please wake me up from whatever I am doing now?

I NEED HELP?!
If there is anything like the weakest phase in life, it'd be now.
I MUST START STUDYING.
I MUST PROVE THAT THIS IS NOT A TRUE REFLECTION OF MY CAPABILITY.
I MUST I MUST I MUST.
I will prove it, not with words, but with actions.
SA2, HERE I COME.

on the otherhand, I would like to thank lydiayang for being sucha good listener today(:
May god bless you with a good cca and a good class in poly.
would like to thank kay as well, i`m gonna reply your msg now(:

2009-04-03T23:58:00.004+08:00

been going through alot throughout these 2-3 weeks.
There are some burdens that i've learnt to let go and some conflicts that have started to brew as the year proceeds.
All of which, makes me feel distraught at the mere thought of it.
So i try, try to hide all these negativity and discontentment in my heart.
And i think i have done a relatively good job so far because I've started confiding less in people.
or rather, there's not many people I can actually confide in because evryone has their own set of problems to solve.

Just when i've set my mind to cherish 2009, it kinda struck me that 2008 was perhaps, the year that I should HAVE cherished instead.
the year which I neednt stress my brains out because I knew, relatively well, what was going on in class,
the year when everything spelled fun even though I had to face much judgements from the class
The year when I still had my bunch of close friends which I no longer have anymore,
the year when my family was still at peace,
the year when I was perhaps, stubborn, irritating or emotional even.

I just dont feel that there's anything worth in TPJ for me to remember but my netball team & the bintaners not forgetting 1 or 2 closefriends.
friends who've stood by me thus far ever since JC life began.

netballers, I hope we`ll fight on for the a divisions. I promise I wont back out/give up because hey we're a team:D I`ll try not to let him affect me but well, no promises there yet because he had punctured my confidence level far too many times by bringing it down to point zero.Honestly,I find it really hard to play for a coach who doesnt care for my welfare. The SRJC's game was a good judge of how much he thinks I matter to the team; near zero I guess. If you dont think I can contribute, by all means, kick me out.
I dont exactly wish to play under a coach who doesnt give a shit when I hyperventilate or fall.

2009-03-28T13:28:00.004+08:00

I dont even know why I get so emotionally attached when fill-in-the-blank doesnt even give a shit.

2009-03-24T22:21:00.001+08:00

last minute mugging kills

2009-03-16T22:10:00.004+08:00

As of now, my life will revolve around nothing but my lecture notes, books ,calculator and netball. Which makes it kinda sad but what choice have I got?
Cannot stand studying in my crib so please date me out to study if you lack a study buddy.
i'd go down FOC:D

sidenote: I owe mabel 14 suicides *yikes*
fixtures are out for the a'division games:
MERIDIEN
TEMASEK
ANGLOCHINESE
CATHOLIC.
lucky or what :/ TPJ netballers are gonna give our all, we`re gonna put up a strong fight and play like never before. Just you wait.

back to math goodnight

2009-03-08T23:33:00.006+08:00

Friday was a nerve wrecking day for the 2008 batch of jc1 and jc2 students.
Many j1 people were struck with fear, not to mention the jc2 students who had to reap the fruit that they`ve sowed thus far, albeit rotten or sweet.
The entire atmosphere of the school was pretty tensed and I,for one, was worried for the jc2s.
08A03 Sat in the hall to watch the jc2 batch collect their results.
Some had worry written all over their faces whilst others remained nonchalant as we waited patiently for 2.30 to arrive.
In the midst of our wait, a few from each class were publicy commended and their results, publicized.
Silence prevailed, as we listened to every single grade that was announced.
It seemed liks many seniors had gotten an A for GP this year which got me thinking that GP shouldnt be that hard to excel in.
And i`ll make it happen since they did too.

The same goes for my other subjects because there are only 2 options.
It's either you make it to uni or you dont.
So i`ll grab the opportunity to study hard and make the best of it so that i wont end up in a pool of regrets.
I`m all out to study till my brain dies of malfunction.
Let's hope my motivation doesnt die down

The situation for netball is somewhat similar to my motivation to study
I know i`m not good enough as compared to the rest of the mid-fielders in the team.
And it demoralizes me a lot to see the rest performing better than I am.
I dont even know if i have stretched my limit but i`m going to put up a fight before I`m condemned by everyone else.
I've set my mind to run everyday and i`m going to fulfil that goal.
Started with my runs with yangliye today(SUNDAY)
6 rounds arnd the stadium and an additional round(400M) of sprinting(and a bit of jogging) with timing.
1 min 28s.
I believe I can do better with more practice.
A'DIV HERE I COME!
i know i`m not good enough in your eyes, you can jolly well take me out of the main team and put her in because i know she'll surpass me after she has learnt all the drills that i've to teach her.
because only the fittest survives and i am,unfortunately, not the fittest.

pictures from wednesday!
havent uploaded all yet though

2009-03-04T21:54:00.005+08:00

last wednesday was roadrun>> training with netballers by rollerblading>> gelare>> home

ah cheng

09s15

09s15

kim ang

idk what i`m doing

mabel wong captain!

kimmy and amanda

ely bird.

abby!

HAFIZ THE CURLY HAIR BOY

NURUL,AISYAH AND KIMMY

AISYAH:D

cheetah shot without mabel

baik ah suyin, block my face

claudy,xinyi, kimmy

PAMINAH ALSO.

Pahmehluh chow:D

I seriously think mr koh posed for this picture although he denied it.

Ms Fung, our ct

And from last week onwards, my thursdays will be dedicated to studying with the bintan people:D
Time is running out and i`m lagging far behind in my grades which isnt a good thing at this point in time.

spasm at its best

marlins!

managed to squeeze into the mini car:D

i love hamham

The thought of going up for my space my voice gives me the creeps but nonetheless I have to give it a try( i dont have a choice ). Begged Ms. Fung to get me off the task but she refused. So what other choice have I got?

to you know who you are.
I cant pretend that nothing has happened to our friendship because it has ,indeed, changed over the past few months.
Idk how exactly, but it felt awful.
so much so that i dont even know how to salvage it anymore.
I hate how we`re not talking like how we used to, i hate how we act like mere acquaintances now, I hate how every conversation seems so rehearsed and awkward, I especially hate it when i`m still hoping for you to realize that everything's not okay.
I wasnt referring to this kinda change when i wanted things to change for 2009.
And it really hurts me so bad to acknowledge the fact that i've lost you, a close friend.
You said you`ll help me cross that barrier but now when i`ve alrdy done so, there's a new barrier between us.
I guess neither of us wanted this to happen but things change and we change in accordance to the circumstances that enshrouds us.
I completely understand that and i`m not blaming you for the drift btwn us.
Actually I dont even think it matters to you anymore because you've got a new environment to adapt to.
I hope you`re happy that i`m finally showing my thoughts now.
all the best.

2009-02-24T22:54:00.003+08:00

I seriously dread the thought of going to school every single day because i only get an average of 4-5 hours of sleep daily.
So I end up going to school, screwing up evrything I do, and constantly being lost in lessons which makes me feel like a living zombie.
But yea the point is, it gets me cranky when things dont go the way it should.
I`m sorry for being sucha cranky bitch for the past few weeks, I just cant seem to control my temper anymore.
Somehow,I feel like I have turned into a less cheerful person ever since I set foot into JC.
Is it because I cant adapt to the tension in tpjc?
Back in tms evryone was comfortable with evryone and there was no need to conceal our wacky side because it was our culture.
Because of that I cant help but feel restrained in TPJ because the people are so different as compared to good ol' tms.

But time stops for no one and it's been a year.
The workload's piling up like no tomorrow and I continuously struggle to keep myself afloat amongst the stiff competition.
The pressure to excel is building up and I`m starting to explode even before I've officially started mugging for A's.
I`ve been so busy completing my hmwk,catching up on rest that I dont even have the time to meet up with my friends.
That is how busy I am.

And the constant reminders to go for service isnt helping at all.
comeon, I have reasons for not going for cg and service.
I have other commitments like CCA and family as well and it so happens that friday is a cca day and i end arnd 6 .
Leaving me with only 2 days to spend with my family and what better time than to hold celebrations and events on weekends right?
SO how exactly am i supposed to defy my mom and my relatives?
you tell me?
I have to cope with so many things only to receive sarcastic messages from you thinking that I skip cg and service intentionally.
IN THE FIRST PLACE, IF I GO BASED ON OBLIGATION, HOW DOES THIS MAKE ME A DEVOTED CHRISTIAN?

Paint your target (Acoustic) - Fightstar

2009-02-23T20:31:00.009+08:00

Attended the orientation camp from the 18th to the 20th of feb and totally enjoyed myself with the class that i was assigned to, 09s15.
Was so glad that they were so enthusiastic for all activities even when they were all tired out.( exactly what i prayed for (:)
I am absolutely proud to be your ogl 09s15!

First day of camp
wasnt all that fruitful but it got better towards the end of the day. got to know a few of em'

Second day of camp
was the climax whereby we played several games and participated in the amazing race.
Was supposed to meet zach together with huiyi at 5.30 in the morn but overslept. so there goes our morning lepak session.
The amazing race was awesome because we had so much fun cheering and well I HAD FUN WATCHING THEM MAKE FOOLS OUT OF THEMSELVES.
and there was this station whereby they had to shampoo their hair to fill up the bucket with suds.
Was seriously great fun to watch them with whacky shampoo-ed hair and we even took a picture(without my partner zao)

THE THING IS, when they were done with the activity. some of the guys looked at me and said " AYE, she's sooooo clean " so they all ran after me to shampoo my hair with the meagre amount of foam that they had in their hands and made a mess outta my hair.THANKS AH.
I only know that weijing was one of em' pffft. couldnt see the other guy.

Soul night was brilliant because the advertisement game made us ogls laugh like crazaye.
Besides that, there was this band member from "forthiscycle" who was oh-so-HOT.
Y`KNOW HOT LIKE SSSSSSSS.
I think most of the girls melted when we heard him sing, he's that good okay!
ended off with the mass dance and that's all for the 2nd day

Last day of camp.
Finally fulfilled our promise to lepak in the morning.
Huiyi and I woke up at 5 and met zach at 5.30 at the stadium steps.
Gazed at the night sky and enjoyed the breeze; at the expense of eyebags of course:(
Chatted and left for morning assembly.
09S15 totally surprised me with new cheers:D gah i love that class!
Telematch for the day.
My voice became really sexy in the midst and i was trying so hard to prevent myself from zaoxia-ing but well i did anyway.
Overall camp was really good fun.

OGLS were called hummingbirds for some reason
and we had our own share of fun by creating our own cheers, cheering enthusiastically and camwhoring.
i <3 hummingbirds!
and i swear hawk house has the nicest cheers.
there's this cheer that is stuck in evryone's head.
" DIU DIU DIU DIU X3 *DOES ULTRAMAN POSE* "
heh

this guy kunhua was supposed to fill up the space

wha sia luh! STUNNED BURGER

Meat clap

one jellyfish clap!

09s15:D

HUMMING BIRDS!

STUNNED BURGER YO

DIU DIU DIU DIU X3

<3

OGL PARTNER ZAOOOOO

HELLO AH CHENG<3

clarence leading the cheer

stunned burger!!whoo

edmond big mac!

i <3 you hamham

ALICIAAAAAA:D

EAGLES OGLS!!

2009-02-18T10:05:00.004+08:00

last week was friendship week with

Monday being HIGH5 DAY- so we went arnd hi-fiving people.

Tuesday being TAKE A PICTURE DAY

cheetah shot

some of the bintan-ers

geography people

glory and i

kimmywang & glory

good ol' nyeh clan that doesnt exist anymore

credits to zach

with the small tms friend

unsuccessful attempt to make him look shorter

it was a crazy day altogether because us bintan-ers went arnd taking pictures and doing the makan cheer!
totally embarrassed ourselves but who cares, because we`re the bintaners yo.

Miss Siti the hot p.e teacher plus haha " cat ah "

hafiz the curly hair boy.

aisyah the super enthu ogm in og21:D

YAY YAY YAY suyin baik ah

huiyi ze bomb! i <3 you for all the latenight lepaking

class buddy yo

Wednesday was leave a mark day so I happily drew on many people
and many people happily(madly) drew on me.
i.e i had an arrow drawn up my thigh that said whoo!(thanks to suyin)
but i cleaned it off because it was too obscene.
Was also drawn on my knee, my 2 arms and my neck. like woah right, totally vandalized.
Seriously had a hard time cleaning off the ink marks:/

thursday was give thanks day

and friday was 'show your love day' and pre-valentines day:D
Was giving out white chocolate oreo cheeseballs which was quite a success i must say.
gotta thank everyone who showered me with candy and cards,especially my girlfriend for getting me the rose.

thank you for the bunch of lollipops pahmehluh chow

thank you for the goodies and cards and what nots lovely friends

Afternoon was spent at training and at 5 we had our match with innovajc.
And we lost by a little bit(i think 4?) albeit leading for the first quarter.
Honestly, I was quite disappointed that we lost because winning this match meant boosting the school's reputation but I also thought that evryone did very well considering that it was the first time we played together as a team.
The team factor wasnt as strong as innova's but as I said we`re a new team(:
We did convert most of our balls(thanks to glory & lenny) and did our formations as taught by coach.
So let's not look back at our match but rather, look at how we can further improve our netball skills and stamina to compete for a'div.
I`m sure we can do it girls, we have 6 more weeks before a'div officially starts.
Lets put this time to good use:D

Bintan closure night after the match.
A video presentation on our camp was played and all of us were really touched by it.
Thank you for all your effort amelia, geraldine and amanda:D
Did our sacred makan cheer and started crashing photos during refreshment time.
It went on for about 20 mins or so and we couldnt stop basking in the photo fun.

the matt & minah clan

the guys minus khayne

bhai,mabel and i

cheetah unsuccessful jumpshot

amelia and the cheetahs

Ms. siti's sexy back!

gayboys

fuad

mabel's sexaye legs

whooo:D

afiq attempting to throw shuhua's slipper into the bin.

shumin, elizabeth and mabel

shuhua hua hua the kuniang

some of em' during phto crashing madness

the bintan couple

the red shots

our 2 mcs for the night. hanies and abraham

zach, i know you`re trying to take a candid one

Headed for supper with a few and then huiyi,zach and khayne came over to my place to lepak at 12 am and we sat at the pool until I was too tired to keep my eyes open and went up to sleep in my comfy bed
The 3 of them continued to stay at the poolside till 3 afore walking to zach's place which is abt 5 mins away since the security guard kinda chased them away

orientation entry next,
been really busy nowadays so yea be patient.
goodnight.

2009-02-07T22:33:00.006+08:00

let's see.
several outings last week
celebrated neena's belated birthday at bugis,swensons.

with the birthday girl

watched east zone match with yang& lai>> hajilane for some shopping>> countryclub(haha)>> sakae with lai.

liye looks drunk here

candid

living up to the name

Tms match with PLMGS.
wasnt exactly fantastic but the effort was good. keep it up girls.

clarkquay with yang

she told me to do this to her face. AGAIN.

And the new j1s have finally stepped into tpj on monday.
I gotta admit that the whole j1-coming-in thing made me feel a little nostalgic.
I kinda felt that tpj was invaded which shldnt be the case but I just did.
It just felt weird to suddenly see so many people in school wearing different uniforms.
Guess that was how the seniors must have felt last year too

Anyway zao and I were in-charge of og21:D
We had fun bringing them through the first 2 days and tried our best to, well, break the ice.
Wasnt a huge success I would say but we DID eventually take a picture together.
The thing is I dont have it with me.
I would like to extend a big thank you to all in og21, for allowing me to skip class and bond with you wonderful people.
I hope that all of you have gotten into the class that you`ve opted for and please please JOIN NETBALL (for girls) haha.

And yesterday was netball try-outs for the j1s.
We felt so inferior watching them play because they were really goooood.
Got kinda intimidated but then again it`s for the good of the team:D
Besides, I had my chance last year.
So I need not worry anymore cause i've got smth in my sgc.
I`m gonna pray that they`ll stay in netball because the match with ijc is coming up next friday
AND WE CANNOT LOSE TO EM' because ijc has been insulting our team & we know it.
We're gonna prove you wrong ij.

I can hear the track beckoning for me to run alrdy.sheeeesh.
And i desperately need new shoes because my asics nearly killed my back yesterday. I heard a click sound when i slipped at the semi-circle and it still hurts up till this very point in time.
Havent got time to see a physician yet, i feel like a granny sheesh.
Mom said that the area's red. OH NOOOO. hoooow?!

Havent been going for cell group and service either:(
The former because i couldnt make it and the latter was because i woke up with a swollen left eye.
I think my body's breaking down.
It's been like that for the whole week and the amt of work just keeps piling.
I seriously doubt i can handle all the stress:/

I guess things are a little bit better after talking it out.
i hope the situation will change for the better(:

2009-01-27T18:04:00.011+08:00

CHINESE NEW YEAR HAVE SOME FUN!

yea right..
Chinese new year didnt do me any justice this year.
Simply because of my cramps that came at such a timely hour.
literally a "red" new year please.

dad nearly nabbed him home

eat eat eat only

and that's his brother whose attention he stole from : XAVIER

little WAYNE

OMG he was soooooo cute!

Hongbao lady

So cny was yet another painful day.
Didnt get many hongbaos but then again I wasnt expecting much since I only visited two places--My maternal granddad's place and my paternal grandaunt's place.
Played a bit of blackjack at granddad's place and that about sums up the whole of CNY
Disturbing i'd say, all thanks to the work of mother nature.

simply adore

MY MOM.
I`ll fight the war, alongside with you.

topshop sale sale sale sale x100

face looks too disgusting to be seen.

retarded sisters01

02

03

the two older cousins, zhen and yang.

i know right, posture looks weird.

arm looks huge all thanks to camera effect and prolly the top too.
pffft. i dont have huge arms!

hello couz

RACHELLIMZHEN belongs to cql.

LIMDINGYANG: hongbaoman

us 3

i`m the oldest!

yea oldest!

convinced?

And today, being the 2nd day of CNY would mean going out with friends right?
but yours truly is stranded.. AT HOME.
my dear kay cancelled the steamboat session at my place which kinda left me with no other plans for the day:/

ANYWAY 26TH JANUARY was also
NEENA FAJRINA'S

and KIMMYWANG'S BIRTHDAY!

I promise i`ll celebrate your b'day neena albeit belated.
Maybe we could head over to shir's place for more slumber parties, swimming or maybe bake?
Anyhow i`ve read your lj and I just want to tell you to pursue what you like before it's too late.
Time cannot be reversed and 2nd chances dont come by easily:D

With this thy shalt leave thy blog to rot tillst thy haves't smth interesting to blog about.
THY homework awaits.
#1 gp crossword( i`ve been staring at it for the past 3 hours btw)
#2 geog 2007 paper
#3 geog mind map
#4 bnw caste system list
#5 mindmap?idk.. on bnw's language
#6 burn all homework?!! forevaaaaa

2009-01-21T23:45:00.008+08:00

Long Distance II

Though my mother was already two years dead
Dad kept her slippers warming by the gas,
put hot water bottles her side of the bed
and still went to renew her transport pass.

You couldn't just drop in. You had to phone.
He'd put you off an hour to give him time
to clear away her things and look alone
as though his still raw love were such a crime.

He couldn't risk my blight of disbelief
though sure that very soon he'd hear her key
scrape in the rusted lock and end his grief.
He knew she'd just popped out to get the tea.

I believe life ends with death, and that is all.
You haven't both gone shopping; just the same,
in my new black leather phone book there's your name
and the disconnected number I still call.

devotion, where art thou?
i`ve ceased to believe that such good men exist.

So far, the first week of school has been mentally draining duly to the lack of sleep.
And of course, i`ve broken my new year's resolution of not cabbing because the cab service in sg is just too awesome to resist.
that aside, my time table is TOTALLY fabulous! how about ending before 2 on 4 days out of 5?
On the contrary the change in teachers for various subjects just spells doom.
i.e : achmed-looking econs teacher/ tweety bird grandma.
My intuition tells me that i`m going to do badly for econs this year.

Anyway, I had training this afternoon and I dragged abby down with me in an attempt to increase the team number.
Two other new friends joined us too so now I guess we could work towards building up team spirit and stamina.
I must say that gymming and running with yang really helped keep my fitness level to notch.
So I guess I'd just have to work out a little more.
I will push myself, discipline myself, to prove myself.
But it's really hard because as I`ve reiterated many times, netball is a team sport,my effort alone wont suffice.
As much as i`d put in my all there will always be a few who will sit on the fence.
So come on girls, let's go all out even though netball may not be a passion for some of you.

I`d truly wish for things to revert to how it used to be but I know change is inevitable and the only way to get out of this labrythine of frustration is to adapt.
Perhaps I should let go of what has been constructed because I want neither of us to feel bad.
The damage is showing itself albeit slowly.
Everything feels different, distant even, though I know it`s not your fault.
As abby said, sacrifices must be made and I guess this is probably one of the sacrifices that both of us have to make right now.
Whatever it is, I hope we can talk more.

It's time I set my priorities right..

2009-01-18T23:42:00.005+08:00

I`ll try to do a quick one because i`m extremely beat right now.

The weekend spent at OGL camp was absolutely WHACKD!
Initially when I heard that we`d be grouped into our houses I was a little disappointed because it meant being apart from my supposed OGL partner ah cheng.
But it didnt turn out bad at all, not a single bit to be exact.

My house, EAGLES, was amazing and evryone kept their spirits high throughout the entire camp. Making this camp a fantastic one altogether with all the random cheers, the wonderful teamwork in the wet and dry games(amazing race).
We did every single activity as a TEAM, even if it was shampoo-ing our hair on the grass patch just to get as much foam as possible to fill up our bucket. We didnt hesitate and were doing our utmost best.
So kudos to evryone from EAGLES because we did our best and that's the most crucial and best value that anyone can bring back
And hopefully we can instill such teamwork in the fellow j1s when we become real ogls.
Remember, it's not about being ogls it's about having fun and experiencing evrything we did during our preparation camp.
It's the process that matters, success is secondary(:

EAGLES BOLEH~

okay besides eagles, there's the very special bunkmate who`s none other than ahcheng.
Our late night heart-to-heart talks ,when evryone was trying to sleep, were really relieving. And i wouldnt know what to do if i didnt have you to sleep beside:D

Anyway, tmr's like the start of official school because the topical test period is over.
And i havent completed gazillions of homework like the accumulated reading logs, math assignment and what not?
OMG CLAUDIA HOW SCREWED ARE YOU OMG CLAUDIA HOW SCREWED ARE YOU OMG CLAUDIA HOW SCREWED ARE YOU.

very very very scroooooooooooed.

and i havent gotten any sleep since i came back from camp at 1 plus.
What makes it worse is my disgustingly masculine voice that's a result of my continuous shouting during the camp.
So i`mma pack my bag and hit the sacks now.
ogl camp pics to be uploaded after i receive the pics!

GOODNIGHT !

2009-01-13T16:18:00.008+08:00

I`m like really annoyed now because I desperately need some sleep yet there's this air-con repair man that has been walking in and out of my room for the past hour and I cant wait for him to leave because I WANT MY BEAUTY SLEEEEEEP. sheeesh

Anyway, I just took the geog paper at 12 this noon and I didnt exactly study for it since I wasted my whole night chatting with ivanchua the bro last night.
So i only started READING this morning
and thank god for my better-than-average-for-studying-memory that helped pull me through at least 1/2 the paper.
Precisely the reason why I`m in arts and not science because i`m a memory-work kid.
and exactly why I AM ~~SOOOO~~DEFINITELY GONNA FAIL MATH TMR.
because I am lost at integration and utterly confused by vectors.
I swear it's gonna take a miracle to pass math, my arch nemesis.

And I totally hate the weather today because it has been drizzling ever since noon
and I got caught in it twice.
Now i feel a migraine coming which is another reason for failing math test tmr.
Actually, i`m cooking up 101 excuses for myself to skip math. guess it aint gonna work.

On the otherhand, O level results were out yesterday whilst I was fretting over econs. So whilst CNY shopping with kay, I called lai,syaf,yang &neena to ask if evrything's okay and well their results were fine:D except for neena who didnt pick up my call.
IDK what happened but if you need help in any way just give me a ring.
And whilst slacking at our usual rendezvous : cs coffee bean, i spotted this very HUGE housefly in my belgian chocolate latte after drinking like half a cup of it?
I happened to notice it swimming in my hot chocolate pool after I opened a packet of sugar to sweeten the drink. Talk about enhancing the flavour, LOL

N.N

AND SOMEHOW

I`m getting really hooked on this song. It makes me really neurotic and the first verse goes.
Buy it, use it, break it, fix it,trash it, change it, mail - upgrade it,
charge it, point it, zoom it, press it,snap it, work it, quick - erase it,
write it, cut it, paste it, save it,load it, check it, quit - rewrite it,plug it, play it, burn it, rip it,drag and drop it, zip - unzip it,lock it, fill it, call it, find it,
view it, code it, jam - unlock it,surf it, scroll it, pause it, click it,cross it, crack it, switch - update it,name it, read it, tune it, print it,
scan it, send it, fax - rename it,touch it, bring it, pay it, watch it,
turn it, leave it, start - format it.

added at 10:43 : BTW i forgot to mention that my dog just came back from the grooming centre this afternoon and HE SMELLS AWESOME:D BYE.

THE AIR-CON MAN'S GONE SO I`MMA TAKE A NAP NOW.GOODNIGHT/ UH NO EVENING. aiya whatever luh. pictures up after kay has sent em' bye.

2009-01-09T23:50:00.007+08:00

Deep in the night,
insomnia strikes.
The awful sights,
they replay with much dislike.

The supposed comfy pillow,
ironically hard and cold.
Thoughts left to winnow,
as moments of truth unfold.

Streams of tears down those ruddy cheeks
Futile attempts to console the heart, it seems
For it is true that reality reeks
with suburbian woes that society teems.

A zephyr, I`d wish
to bring these desolate dreams away,
Disappear, I'd pray
oh please dont let these nightmares stay.

i got this song from yang's blog

Maybe it's time to recluse myself from evryone.

2009-01-08T22:28:00.007+08:00

Don Omar Ft Pitbull - Fuego - don omar
YOU THINK YOU GANGSTA'?!

7th Jan`08
Finally met up with kay after a month and we went to marina to do some school plus CNY shopping:D
Made a headdash to the different stores, topshop,zara.. blah blah blah

she thinks i`m a retard, i think so too

peekaboo

and then we finally decided to get our school stuff which comprised of my quiksilver bag & her new schl bag( she eventually got a nike one )
Was so very excited about getting my new bag but ALAS, when i went to both quiksilver outlets(one at marina & the other at rafflescity) the bag that I wanted DISAPPEARED FROM EARTH.damnit damnit damnit.

My heart dropped from eggcited to majorly perturbed.
Decided to get another bag despite my disappointed state.
AND I found another I liked though that bag has no hood like the one I wanted.
But the design is similar so I got it. Besides it was a whopping 40 bucks less than the one I wanted.
Maybe god wanted me to save money. HEH
anyhow anyhoo, I HAVE A NEW SCHOOL BAG YAY!

Bought ourselves the same edward monkton diary planner.
I`ve been eyeing it since our last trip:D and knowing that I liked it so much kay actually insisted to buy the diary for me as a belated birthday present since she felt guilty about not giving me anything. THANK YOU LOVE!
Schl stuff aside, Kay bought herself 2 zara tops whilst i got myself the fourskins skirt that i`ve long wanted just that I got the grey one instead.

buys of the day:D

You know after checking my wardrobe I realized that i've got 8-9 grey tops. LIKE WOAH RIGHT? High time I realize that I should stop buying grey stuff.
But I cant help it sometimes because grey is sucha sexy colour. TO ME that is:D
anyhow anyhoo. shopping makes me really satisfied!

when boredom strikes

edward monkton diary planner!:D:D:D

Had swensons for dinner
& my currychickenbakerice was disgusting:/
BUT hell yea, we had a good time doing stupid things.
She kept making me laugh with her singing.

TUESDAY WAS
Operation: reduce tummy fat

Yang came over to my place to tan and yes the sun was good because she got a really good tan.
I came down like half an hour before she did or i`d seriously be redder than her.
And I swear the sun was so hot that I went to tan in the pool instead of the chair.

a normal picture finally

tanning in the pool was awesumz i tell yer.

my face still turned red despite covering it with my matt cap

oh man, i seriously look like a boy boy boy. IF I WERE A BOY~

LIYE: "whalao before you tan you`re alrdy tanned" exactly why I came down 1/2 an hour later.

And after we were done with our tanning and washing up we bus-ed down to tamp stadium to do some running
did 3 sets of 2 rounds( idk why but i cant run continuously on the track )
Jogged an additional 300m & sprinted for the last 100m with timing.
Hit the gym after running.
bumped into joel and his friend but we still continued with our routine.
Did some cycling, and uh as far as i remember I only did cycling. LOL.
Planks, push-ups and crunches as warm down and we were done.

found in SIMEI MRT STATION. hahahaha

Dinner at her place and bucks later at night in an attempt to study econs.
But well it was rather distracting so nothing much got absorbed.
I`M DREADING THE 12TH
and i know many o-level people are dreading it to.
SO good luck to all o level people!

2009-01-03T23:10:00.012+08:00

f.y.i he wanted to wear the horns because he's born in the year of the ox. LOL

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!

I accompanied my youngest sister to TMS for cca orientation this morning which kinda gave me a good chance to visit the netball girls again(:
So i woke up at 8.30 when I slept at 3 in the night in an attempt to complete BRAVE NEW WORLD, and guess what! I DID!
yes, bravenewworld's finally conquered so therest thy othello that thou shalt defeat. with determination & bionic eyes thou willst fulfil this task albeit against thy will.
( can you believe that the whole text is made up of thou,thy,thee whatever! i`m so gonna die )

As I was saying, I brought Sandra to visit the netball booth first, followed by the sign ups for dance & band. Afterthat she watched us,netballers, play a few matches of proper netball games. And the games made me feel so darn good I tell yer.
It's makes me feel like i`m on SOMA, yes soma! a kind of pill that is somewhat similar to ecstasy but only exists in the imaginary world of BNW. omg I think i`ve gone BraveNewWorld bonkers.
anyhow anyhow, i like the plot although it's definitely cynical and pervertic even.
you can read it at http://www.classicreader.com/book/1279/ if you have the time(:

AHHHH, okay stop me. So I played C for the first quart, GA for the 2nd( just for fun ) & GD for the 3rd( HAHA )
I must say that some have improved whereas some have not.
Well it takes time I guess and it's about the ability to apply court strategies on court and not blindly doing them.
Use the right strategies at the right time, only then would they be useful, understand girls?
I know i`m in no position to tell you this anymore because you have a well certified/qualified coach now but this is just an advice coming from me as a senior/ experienced player.
So you can choose not to believe what I say. The decision's up to you.

TM with jackoann after all the netball-ing>> TEPPANYAKI>> COTTONON(bought a super cheap top for 10)>> ADIDAS>> HOME

And today's big occasion ended with a birthdaysong for the old man & dinner at thaivillage.

with the housekeeper

and the dog

sandra the new tmsekian:D

my sexy mommy who`ll always be beautiful in my eyes come what may

FAMILY SHOT w micky.

he has girly traits, i swear

and there's thy father clapping

he seems very happy indeed. and proud that he bought his own birthday cake :/

SO DAD, i`ve decided to put evrything behind me because it's 2009 now and i`m not bringing 2008 anywhere near 2009's memory storage.
Besides, I dont deny that you've been an awesome dad for the past 17 years.
Daddy dearest who showered me with love and care through your neverending nags and talks on life.
So why should I stubbornly hold on to a silly mistake when you`ve done so much for me.
HAPPY 47TH BIRTHDAY DAD.

When we came back from kallangleisurepark, I kinda indulged in a phototaking session with my 2nd sister so here's the results

DOUBLE-TO-THE-TWIST

IDK why but i think this picture is !whackd!

& this is the original

sheryl lim

purple's gay and so are we YAY.

please ignore the backgrnd & focus on the faces.

fish-lipped

this is the sister that i truly look like people!
we have the same eyes, same face-shape, same mouth. dont you think so?

awwwww

:O

a normal shot finally

what you want aye?

the horns are cool.

WELL, after much realization I realized that I didnt write down my 2009 resolutions the other time. OKAY maybe not because I deliberately omitted it since it was so wordy alrdy
SO i`ll make it up here.

RESOLUTION #1.
Get more team players for A'div`09 and win 1 match,at least.( abit unrealistic but you`ll never know until you try(: )

RESOLUTION #2.
study really hard and get extremly good results for A's ( uh huh the typical )

RESOLUTION #3.
Keep mommy happy.

RESOLUTION #4.
Get REALLY HOT ABS.(not abigail abraham though she's hot too)

RESOLUTION #5.
nuu clothes, nuu bag, nuu shoes:D please?

RESOLUTION #6.
Prolly take up wakeboarding courses after a's?

RESOLUTION #7.
NOT TAKE CAB TO SCHOOL FOR 2 MONTHS( am seriously not gonna break this )

RESOLUTION #8.
Learn to walk on heels( oh daaaamn )

RESOLUTION #9.
GET A HOT BF. haha JUST KIDDING. make 2009 a happy year:D

TIME TO GET SOME SLEEP, goodnight:D

2009-01-01T19:00:00.017+08:00

HAPPY 2009 PEOPLE!
2008 has been a rather tumultuous one for me so i`m awfully glad that it's all over now because I know that 2009 will be a better year.
I`ll bury all the unhappiness that I once had in 2008 and await what 2009 has in store for me.

Nevertheless, I must admit that not all things in 2008 was odious for i`m glad to have added new friendships into my life

One of which is my tehclique.
kay,steph,abby & sam, i dont know how much i must thank you for making my jc1 year so fun-filled. From birthday celebrations to supporting steph in dance/song fest, from attending lectures to camwhoring in the cafe.
I`ll never forget those times when we stood together despite knowing each other for less than a week.
And i`m glad that we kept our friendship strong(okay maybe for kay & abby only) even though we were from different streams and classes.
Especially kay and abs, I dont know how I would pull through 2008 without the both of you by my side.

AND MY DEAR KAYLER,
I really didnt expect us to go through so much after the first time you sat beside me during orientation.
It makes me go wow whenever I think back because we`ve really been through a lot this year.
With this, I`m really glad to have you as a buddy much less my girlfriend in school and believe me, this is probably one of the best blessings that I can have in the year 2008.

Thank you lord, for giving me another person to cherish&love with the knowledge that she'll cherish and love me as much as I do.(omg sounds gay, but hey that's friendship for you)

And not forgetting these few people who definitely made my jc1 year awesome
JOEL NYEHPOK
for being there whenever I needed someone to console me,
for being my emo partner when evrything starts acting up,
for being my study buddy,
for being my morning bus partner& always reminding me before the bus reaches my stop(or i'd be cabbing all the time, heh),
for the thoughtful birthday present,
for doing stupid things with pamelachow and I in school.
for listening to my grousing when I had my period(haha)
for making me laugh like an idiot because you`re so blur.
Thank you for being sucha good best friend plus listener:D I know you`ll be there whenever I need you nyehpok. dont get jealous KAY, because you`re still number1

AND PAMOLUH CHOW.
You've been a great classmate plus buddy throughout this entire year and I wouldnt know how I'd survive in class w/out you.
without making fun of you.( pah-muh-luh X2 HUR! )
without YOU making fun of me.
without camwhoring with you( yea, you`re the biggest camwhore I know. HONOURED? )
without studying with you! (library library library = eyecandy:D)
without listeniing to rock/soft metal with you
without singing "myband" like off-tune bitches.hah
without pouring my heart out to you.
without netballing plus bball with you
YEA MAN, we did this much in school!:D
all the eyecandy scouring and the retarded conversations!
and i`m so sorry that you have to tolerate with my short temper:/ I know, i am rather bad tempered:(

OKAY WHO'S NEXT!
AMANDA ONG!!!! dont think i`ll forget you okay.
ultimate bus partner for 2008:D
A div competition would be different if you werent in it because you`re an outstanding player. uh huh, dont be humble amanda.
And when I had this inferiority complex, you and glory were the ones who tried to reassure me of my netball skills & I really appreciate it alot.
Of course, there's also the occasional captain's ball/basketball/ bubbletea/lepak sessions with you and your classmates:D
& the after training meals that we had together.
Bet you had fun disturbing me the whole year and I had fun hanging out with you my tall friend.
PLEASE DONT CYCLE OVER TO MY PLACE AND HUG ME AFTER YOU READ THIS ENTRY. hahahah

omg, dont kill me. i realized i havent got a pic with you because you`re always refusing to take pics!!

AH CHENG(ZIQING)
We've never really talked although we`ve been in TMS for four years.
And getting to know you in TPJ was really fantastic indeed because i've found someone who's similar to me in terms of noisiness!!
YES YES!
Your laughter is so contagious & loud that i`ll always laugh whenever you do.
Then there's the whole chinese class gang which comprised of you, huat & regine when we`d always disturb twu laoshi to give us less homework.
WITH YOUR NON----SENSE and your emo talks with me.
SLACKING together before going for chinese class and sharing same sentiments whenever it came to that topic.
It was certainly amusing to bang tables with you extra extrovert friend:D

Not forgetting the most recent addition that is none other than the oh-so-crazy
BINTAN-ERS!
I cant thank god enough for giving me this chance to go for this trip which resulted in many new friendships and strong bonds.
Words cant describe how much I enjoyed myself in the company of you people because the friendships were so real and all that mattered was the fun that we had throughout the whole awesome trip.
And this friendship was eventually brought outside of bintan and into our very lives right now.

\m/

the rest also includes 08A03

AND TPJ NETBALL.just two words for y`all ROCK ON!

Of course that doesnt mean that i`d forget old friends who've stood by me all this time! this year, last year, last last year and all the other years since i've known them
LIKE YANG&JACQ plus all the starbucks and simei netball times.

THE SISTERS with the ecp and zoo.

MY TMS NETBALL JUNIORS and their eastzone days.

THE BIG BRO with his " aye, who's that chio bu in your display pic " pick up line on msn -.-

LOL I took this picture when I was in sec1:D those arcade days. he didnt want people to see his face directly.

4U`07 and the frequent meetups after receiving our results

NIKI and our steamboat dates, i hope you`re reading this in thailand:/

Y`all alrdy have a place deep in my heart so I wanna extend a big thank you for evrything we`ve done together in 2008!
LET THE PAST BE GONE AND LET THE NEW YEAR COME OSTENTATIOUSLY!

so yesterday 31/12/08
I met up with a part of 08A03 to celebrate ALICIA'S BIRTHDAY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALICIA!:D
had swensons at airport before I left for marina square to meet the 4.
Marina was seriously jam-packed with people and I had a hard time squeezing through to meet them at pizzahut.
What made things worse was the gargantuan crowd that led to the esplanade.
So our plans to the waterfront was eventually cancelled since the exits to the esplanade were closed and we subsequently settled at some grass patch near clark quay
Which still gave us some consolation although the grass was prickling my butt and legs.

impromptu

group shots<3

thank you for the nice picture

tried to be the extra again!

cover your face somemore

hee hee neena, shir & syaf's candid shot

w/out lai.

the sisters

gather gather!

syaf's sneak shot in which i went to be an extra.

SHIRLEY, best listener:D

laiszeman

syaaaf!:D

candid and yet she looks so pretty. it's ms loss seriously! he's BLIND.

idk what she's doing

lai & claudy

neena and the robbers

But when the fireworks were finally out, we just felt evrything was worth it and screams of happy new year filled the entire place. So there were people walking arnd with heineken bottles in their hands and some screaming happy new year as they walk along the road.
PRETTY FIREWORKS:D

i love this fireworks shot:D
and the last part was really magnificent but my camera chose to run out of memory space at that point in time. SHEEEESH.

most colourful shot:D

the journey back was uh, HORRIBLE because we took ages to find the mrt station and to squeeze into the station was seriously no mean feat but anyhow, evrything ended with 2008

HELLO 2009, I KNOW I`LL LOVE YOU MORE THAN 2008:D

omg this is so wordy:/I`m sorry to make you read through this, but give yourself a pat on the back for being so tolerant.

2008-12-28T16:54:00.004+08:00

RECAAAAP....

22nd dec
BINTAN BBQ>> cycling at pasirris park with huiyi,zao & khayne>> big playground>> bbq pit>> FOOOD>> mon-key >> fuad's solo concert with his guitar >> emo-ing >> confession night

whatever said in pasir ris park remains there:D

BINTAN PEOPLE UNITE!

Was my MOM'S BIRTHDAY on the 23rd
sang the usual birthday song and went to tunglok for some buffet:DA
had an awesome time.
I love you mom.
Just know that i`ll be there whenever you need me, i`ll be your filial daughter and i`ll do my utmost best to keep that smile on your face.

mom & dad

little sis, sandra

the two obnoxious sisters pfft.

urgh hate the bones.

seriously dont know what she's doing

25th aka CHRISTMAS, was spent worshipping christ in church.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS
I eventually made my way to siglap's kfc after service to meet neena fajrina the nutz and shirley the quiet!
didnt go to icecream chefs as planned because it was closed:(
Dessert after dinner at gelare and icecream made us 3 very happy girls!
Thanks for spending christmas night with me you two!
I CANT WAIT FOR THE 31ST, countdown at waterfront with the 4.
a night not to be forgotten and a beginning that marks a new chapter!

neena fajrina the nutz

and again

shirley quah xue li
These lines so well rehearsed
Tongue tied and overloaded....

Today I made my way down to bucks and did a little bit of inequalities before yang came to join me from harbour front.
packed 2.30 chickenrice to her place & went down to play some netball.
a simple yet perfect night out. It's been a while since we last did that but we were missing miss jacqueline-ann phua:/

BALL FACE

Heh

thank you liye

thanks again liye. haha

:D

the lighting sucked

imitating who?

guess, guess

on the phone

bend flip shoot

marching?

yang look's like she's flying

oh father heal those hearts tonight.
let their mind be clear as day, let their knots be untangled.

2008-12-25T01:27:00.011+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS Y`ALL.
Soak yourselves in this festive season and let loooooose.HOHOHO

OMG I`M BLOODY HIGH NOW
had a wonderful christmas celebration with my parents this year.
it was sooo special and i`m so going to remember this for life.

For a start, we drove down to clarkquay to eat at this chinese restaurant.
& then we headed to the streets to take a walk.
Walked a little bit and got ourselves seats at the hooter bar!
Dad ordered a bucket of heineken beer and some funny juice for me which was rather disappointing because i wanted a cocktail!
The lady didnt dare to give it to me despite my dad telling her that it was alright because she thought i looked way too young.
BUT ANYWAY, my dad did let me mix a little bit of beer into my juice. HAHA.
well,i dont drink that often anyway, it's a festive thing!

FAMILY SHOT w/out my sisters

candid!

Hoho, we took turns to wear the horns!!

pretty mommy with the horns equals sexy!

my dad's sucha joker, i swear!

dad's cheeky face!

daddy's girl

aww so sweet!

the drink! HOOTY FRUITY. i think it's some funny mixture of juice.NON-ALCOHOLIC BTW!

Well kinda felt like a grown-up, i mean hello IT'S THE NIGHTLIFE.
how often do i get to head out like that, much less with my parents(because my two sisters went for the orchard countdown instead)
What really brightened up the atmosphere at the bar was the hooters ballet performance in which this bunch of waitresses gather together to dance!
god, it was fantabulous:D!

the performance!

Then after all the drinking we went to different scenic spots to take some pictures and MOM bought us a snow spray! y`know that white soapy snow that comes out?
YUPPPP, and she sprayed it at dad and me.
So we gathered around at this junction for the countdown & dad started spraying the snow spray at random people, disturbing those who were trying to have their pictures taken! OMG it was so damn funny. my dad was being sucha bugger!
When the countdown was over, he wanted to spray more but there was none left in the spray can. HAHAHAHAHA anti-climax!!

look like a cat, yes.

see the snow?

the junction

dad after being sprayed with snow!

Home sweet home after all the christmas joy!!
I love 2008's christmas, and most of all I love my parents for bringing sucha wonderful christmas to me.
stay like this, forever...

2008-12-21T00:44:00.004+08:00

friday
woke up early in the morn & sent my youngest sis to schl for sec schl sec1 registration aka BABYSIT.

met up with lai&syaf at tanah merah station and made our way to sentosa<3
sky was overcast with grey clouds with a tad bit of sunray piercing through, lai was soooo disappointed. What made it worse was the slight drizzle upon arrival:(
but it went away in like 5 minutes so we bought a beach mat and tanned.

in the midst this bunch of army guys(i think) came over and asked if we could take a picture with them because this was one of their quests in some game.
& they spoke really quick chinese so lai & I couldnt really make out the words, what more syaf! The thing is lai actually said okay, only to realize that we HAD no choice but to take a picture with them. wtpok.
next bunch of guys came after that and we sort of overheard their conversation before they even approached us soooooo being smart we rejected them.
DAMN BLOODY EMBARRASSING LUH.

anyway we tanned for about an hour or so ,with the measly rays,and I practically slept through half the session with my face covered so it wouldnt turn red.& when i meant slept I REALLY SLEPT. lai & syaf couldnt believe I could sleep in sucha condition. cant help it, i woke up at 7.30 & I slept arnd 3.
took photos & decided to leave thereafter.
this bunch of indianmatts aka indi-atts then approached lai for her number! WHOO
indian magnet! syaf& i were laughing so hard
>> bathe and left for uncle's home to celebrate my little cousin's 7th b`day.

We Apologize For Nothing - Fightstar

saturday
Looked for zhen at bugis & helped her set up her stall at this bazaar/flea market at waterloo street.
Was a really new experience for both of us and her friend.
Cabbed down to meet raymond the lemon for candlelight service
SERVICE WAS OVERPOWERING.
presence was fantastic, message was powerful, spirits were high.
We were wishing evryone merry christmas:D:D and it was sucha joyful atmosphere.
i`ll let you be my light, guide me in your way.

anyway i went back to waterloo street to look for my dearest cousin and tended the store with her. I saw this really really cool stall that was selling really cute colourful polaroid cameras. WAS SO FASCINATED BY THEM because they seriously look like toy cameras.
But the price was beyond whackd, how about $95 for a camera that looks like smth from toysrus.
In other words,the camera was cool but the price was a fool.

Tended the stall till 8 odd and OH HOHO I bought this really pretty dress for 12 bucks. It made me extremely thrilled because it's from pull-and-bear. So it means good material, good design = SUPER WORTHY BUY.
was a rather satisfying day overall especially service.

CHRISTMAS SPECIAL:D
hey peeps, my church's having a christmas drama on the 25th(CHRISTMAS) in expo at 10.30 pm or 12.30 pm and i would like to invite you guys to come:D A fantastic show not to be missed, what better way to spend christmas right? do tell me if you`re interested!

i`m sorry, i didnt do enough.

2008-12-20T00:24:00.005+08:00

This entry's going to be on thursday's happenings.

>> woke up late in the morn (8.45)>> cabbed down to school>> trained under the hot sun>> face turned mega red>> lunch with manda,olivia & liying:D >> bus-ed home to bathe

aite down to real business

mrt-ed to cityhall station to meet zach & fuad, got the tickets for " the day the EARTH stood still " and accompanied zach to levis because he wanted to get a pair of jeans in exchange for his old one.
They had this sale whereby two shirts were sold for only 49.90
I could hear the shirts beckoning at me " BUY ME, 49.90 and we are yours! "
damn it, it's LEVI'S!!
but hah, i managed to succumb the temptation:D

After zach was done with his levi's shopping we left to meet the rest of the bintan-ers & headed to swensens!:a
saw MS.SITI who was with her bunch of friends and boy was she shocked to see us together.
smell the bintan spirit man!

ordered our respective dishes & wanted to do the makan cheer but dissed the idea because it was gonna be embarrassing.
p.s The next time you go to swensens, try the apple crumble. it`ll seriously melt in your mouth
caught the movie after that and it sucked save for the effects but yea the movie plot sucked. please dont catch it, i totally regretted.
except for the part when keanu reeves spoke in chinese in this really ang-moh-chinesy acent. OMG THAT MADE ME LAUGH LIKE A HYENA.. I was so cracked up that the people arnd me started laughing at me instead.

Went to the esplanade roof top to lepak and camwhore followed by supper at the nearby hawker centre.
On the way to the rooftop we saw adrian pang PLUNK( as pronounced by zach. HAHA )
and the KUNIANG SHUHUA wanted me to take a picture with him&her which was far too scary for me.
because I cant approach people for nutz.
huiyi & I went to find several nice spots to take pictures
mrt-ed home at 11.45 & shared a cab home. gosh i reached home by 12.15 and was beat by then, face still throbbing from the heat and the red still insistently plastered on my face. :(
ANYHOW, I STILL LOVE MY BINTAN-ERS.

the girls

the guys

her attempt of getting some unglam shot of me.too bad shuhua!

shuhua's unglam shot that she urged me not to put up on facebook

some girls

SHUHUAAAA HUAAAA HUAAAA

why-you-take-my-picture-when-i`m-drinking pose

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

aye i took a cool shot of fuad.

ostrich much HAHA

tzehaw seems shocked.

huiyi went nutz

ZACH's cheesy smile and the TICKETS!

thanks for the fingers amanda LOL

kuniang shuhua & machoamelia!

huiyi the cheetah & I

Apple crumble sharers:a

amanda & I

marianne behind her bag

khayne

fuad& tzehaw

Tzehaw wanted to take this pic so bad that he started posing even before i turned on the cam's flash. HAHA

oh yes a video to end off thanks to mr kenjeezers.
definitely tickled me,

MUST WATCH. ANGMOH SPEAKING SINGLISH, take that SINGLISHporeans.

2008-12-17T18:33:00.009+08:00

I`m in quite a bad mood now which explains why i`m appearing offline.
dont feel like talking to anyone less i`d start fuming again so i`mma just rant here.
got a haircut just now and the hairstylist kinda screwed my hair so i was rather kapeesh about it.

and then i started quarelling with my younger sis because she was being sucha brat and she even threatened to get my mom's birthday present without me if I kept going on.
hell no was I gonna let her threaten me so I went home myself in a fit of anger.

Y`know sheryl, the world doesnt bloody revolve around you.
Noone has to stupidly tolerate with all your nonsense,with all your mindless theories.
Seriously, you`ve got to friggin' understand that your defiance STINKS.
All you want is for people to understand you, to give way to you, to listen to you. AND IT'S ALL ABOUT YOU YOU YOU YOU.
You dont bother to find out about how others feel, you dont bother to find out if you`re wrong, you dont bother to correct yourself when you`re wrong, you dont bother about the aftereffects of your actions.
You dont even give me the minimal respect that I ought to have as an older sister much less to our parents.

and I have more but I am going to spare you guys from reading it because it's seriously angsty and I AM STILL RAGING NOW.

I`ll just briefing sum up on genting.
food>> cybercafe>> shopping>> clabi(cardgame in the hotel)>> outdoorthemepark>> kbox>> kennyrogersroasters
in short, it was tantalizingly boring.

the cousins and I

evryone

that's my sis there

cousin dearest

my pretty cousin

cousinly love:D

getting the christmas vibe alright

kobe bryant's disciple.

came back a day earlier then expected because my uncle was gonna get married and we had to attend his wedding reception. When I say WE it meant my dad and mom BUT the kids;us, had to tag along for idk what reason because my cousins didnt.
I wasnt a bit excited about it because it meant missing netball training but anyhow I went for it.
And arrived home,with an aggravated cough&sorethroat.
Thank god I feel a tad bit better now.
But my dog is feeling otherwise because that poor thing became so weak and skinny after returning from the pet hotel. And he has become increasingly inactive and quiet which isnt like his usual self:(
it's starting to make me worry.

rings exchange

she's got all the good genes.

mom & brandon my little cousin

groupshot with bride and groom

groupshot02

2008-12-11T00:27:00.006+08:00

gosh, i`mma rush through this entry because I need to wake up at 4.45 am tmr.
I`m so gonna sleep in the coach. Anyhow anyhow, finally a vacation to somewhere close, MALAYSIA!
It's better than nothing seriously.
It also means being away from my lappy for 5 daysD: means NO SOOONGS from lappy:(
Well at least i`ll be online for a few hours in a day so if you catch me online,you`re really lucky.

Went for TPJ's netball training after like 15 days of rest from netball.
Was really hyped up and prepared for a good workout but evrything turned out to be a rather big disappointment.
First up I thought training was supposed to start at 8 so I rushed down and reached at 8.20 only to find that i was the only idiot at the court. So I called glory and found out that training starts at 8.30 instead.
Sat there like a fool for 20 mins before glory came and k.wang + amanda came thereafter.
So it was us 4 and the many many balls that amanda took out.LIKE WTPOK?
training with 3 other people, how amusing. Didnt do much & left earlier than the bballers who started their training much much earlier.
GOSH, i felt so ashamed y`know like only 4 people turned up whilst the other ccas had many more members.
And not to mention the crankiness from the lack of sleep, i was really looking forward to a training that could make me move a little more so that i`d be less sleepy.

Lunch with the girls after "training" and met gf at marina square after that.
Sat at Mos burger reminiscing the old holiday times in America and Austrailia.
Seriously the best holidays I had in both countries.
WINDOW SHOPPPPPPPED.
okay i have like a whole list of wants now.
AM GOING TO BUST MY WALLET BUT OH HOHO IT'S THE SEASON TO BE JOLLY GOLLY,
dear santa please put these at my door step(since i dont have a chimney)
1. QUIKSILVER BACKPACK WITH HOODY
2. RIPCURL WATERBOTTLE( With gf )
3. ZARA BLUE TOP
4. NEW RIPCURL/QUIKSILVER WALLET & LANDYARD*because i lost the one nathan gave:(*.
5. FOURSKINS TEE
6. FOURSKINS RED SKIRT( been wanting it since sept! please!!)
7. F.O.X SWEATER( I dont mind the nike one though)
8. ESPIRIT WHITE SPAGHETTI TOP
9. SAUCONY RED RUNNING SHORTS!
10. DIARY PLANNER FOR 2009!

I`d like to be greedy for once since i've not been shopping for ages and i usually dont bear to spend on stuff. This ;however, doesnt apply to fooood because i wld seriously be more than willing to pay for good food.
So dear santa, do remb to drop those gifts at my door step. I'd write you a card to thank you in the poles for your generosity. I`ve been a good girl, been staying at home albeit rotting infront of the computer, but hey I listend to mommy dearest:D
HEEEE

Back to our outing.
Had yukiyaki buffet for dinner and d.i.y ice-cream for dessert:a
GREAT TIME WITH THE GF, am going to miss you in GENTING.
do send me the pics when i get back okay:D
AND TO ALL YOU PEOPLE OUT THERE, I`LL BE BACK ON THE 15TH
call & message at your expense:D GOODNIGHT.

Overdued photos from slumberparty with the sisters

2008-12-06T23:08:00.007+08:00

thurs
met up with the sisters for some dvd-ing and girly time at shir's place.
watched chuckie and had a good laugh/scream.
Chuckie aint frightening, it's just really gory and sick.
painted our nails( i know it's not the norm but i`m doing it in the name of fun )
redid it whilst watching our 2nd dvd show, the sleepovers.
Took pictures of our artpieces & trained down to bugis to look for neena.
dinner + walk at hajilane
camwhore session in some underpass & parkview square
HOME.

friday
trip with yang&jacko was cancelled
caught up with nyehpok after a month. he's like DARK now but I still win him hands down.
studied at starbucks siglap( spent 2 hours talking about volleyball and the remaining to study )
Brought him to werners which was so damn super near his house.
and that retarded guy didnt even know that it existed. funny or what.
I dont even live there nyeh.
Bought pastries &he bought himself a loaf of "fitness bread" because he saw the word fitness in it? Hysterical at its best.
>> TALK TALK TALK>>
Thanks for listening to all I have to say.
We will brave through our crisis' together. Be strong nyeh and I`ll be strong for my own problem too. I cant allow myself to fall.
trained down to sembawang for cell(:
raymond the lemon is officially the biggest trickster I know.
And being the idiot which is typically me, I was the only one who fell for most of the tricks. WELL, at least I made evryone laugh with my stupidity.

today
mrt-ed down to dover and my earphones bailed out on me. time for new ones AGAIN.
>badminton at SP with raymond, tinglei & chencheng.>lunch>service at jw. one word, fantastic.>mrt-ed to tanahmerah
before tapping out I had to wait for a call before I could decide if i shld join my sis at tm or just hit the sacks.
sat at a corner and I actually liked the feel of it.
To be alone, to be isolated.
For one, I didnt give a damn about the weird stares.
Somehow, I just locked and numbed myself from the externalities arnd.
Nothing seemed to matter at that very moment, it was just the tranquility, the dull-coloured ceiling and I.
Miraculously enough,it was sufficient to make me happy, to give me some peace from the flitting images that torment my mind,from the terrorizing arguments, from constantly pacifying my violent worries.
What more can I ask for?

2008-12-03T17:22:00.003+08:00

Like fireworks
its beauty unrivalled;
ethereality at its best.

Psychedelic colours,
complimented with screams of joy.
Painted smiles aplenty.

A moment in time
shortlived yet etched;
in every living memory.

I ABSOLUTELY LOVE ACOUSTICS
yesterday's buffet outing was cancelled:(
but fear not, because today is going to be the end of my sit-at-home-and-stare-at-the-computer days.
For I`m gonna spend the rest of my week outside:D:D
LIBERAAAAATION.
toodles-for-now-yo.

2008-12-01T17:11:00.010+08:00

Have posted up the pictures for the tanning session.
Life has been extremely b-o-ring.
I got so bored that I even went to the extent of OFFERING to go to the gym with my parents last night.
There's nothing wrong with spending time with my parents, I actually liked it. But gymming has never been my kinda thing.
I`ve never liked exercising in that box-like room, it just makes me claustrophobic.

I hate this part - Pussycat Dolls
seriously hate staying at home when there's nothing to do.

BEEN STUCK AT HOME TODAY.
& I think my brain's kinda stale now:/
I taught Ahcheng how to make a facebook account just now and spent the rest of my time doing quizzes on facebook.
OH MAN,i`ve got to seriously get a life.
Well,I actually contemplated to bus down to mpcl to read my lit novels earlier in the afternoon but my laziness got the better of me. urgh.
To make things worse,training only starts on the 10th.
and i`m going to miss 2 trainings out of the 5 because i`ll not be in s`pore:(
I feel like a worm and I cant stand myself but my body isnt listening to my mind.
I...
NEED TO START STUDYING PRONTO.
NEED TO START READING 2395293847196472838 PAGES.
NEED TO START TRAINING
NEED TO MAKE A TRIP TO QUEENSWAY
NEED TO BLADE AT EASTCOASTPARK!
NEED TO ... SCREEEEEAM.
Am going to pack my stuff yet again.. what a sad life I have?!:(

It's okay, I`ll bear with the boredom since I`ll be liberated tmr
Am going to meet my dear gf for yukiyaki buffet tmr:D
Finally. It's been ages since I last met up with her.
FOOD BUFFET FOOD BUFFET FOOD BUFFET FOOD BUFFET FOOD BUFFET
TOMORROW!:D:D:D:D

yang's sexy back

jacko's in the middle of nowhere.

yea splash water at me somemore jacq.

To the following faces below, you have earned a date with me this month:D(not inclusive of the people whom i`ve met for the past week)

GIRLFRIEND

LIBRARY CLIQUE

BINTAN-ERS!

COUSIN DEAREST

BER BER BER BRO.:D *who's that chiobu in your d.p?*

TEH CLIQUE. dimsum buffet wheeeeen?

NATHAN DANIEL SEKHAR

PAMELA CHOW YING QI

4u`07 ZE BOMB

JOEL NYEHPOK. cheeeerup!

ABBYYYYY-AH-BEE!

AH CHENG